Sorry to hear that. I walked in your shoes for the past half year and mentally it completely drained me. I wish you all the best in coming 2026 😉

The hardest thing about clinical depression is watching your friend that has it and to see them completely lose their sense of self. Nothing matters to them anymore. Not even their favorite game. I hope you and all who support you have a better 2026.

And do what you want for hitting your fundraising goals. This is about you and finding your joy again.

Yeah, this. I told a best friend of mine I'd just be doing this and that and ask myself "am I happy? This should make me happy.". And just mechanically doing things that otherwise I know would make me excited, and yet still, I felt... nothing. "This is a good thing. I like this, I know I do. I should be happy." And then you just end up sleeping away your days because your dreams give you more comfort than your actual life does. Wishing your friend the best, ultimately I'm glad you're there for them - even if it takes a while, sometimes a LONG while, knowing that there are people who want the best for you is what can really keep you going in those days when you wonder "if I died, how long would it be for someone to discover my rotting body? How many days of no response, or would the smell give it away?". Brains can get weird. A little show of care goes a long way and I'm lucky enough to have folks who do really care whether I'm around or not.

Thank ya. Hope the fundraiser goes up, I'm so tired of constantly having to think whether or not I get to have a little fun just because everything is so expensive these days.