Aw, I'm so sorry *hug*

*hugs back* Thanks.

It's been difficult. He was such a big part of my life I'm left feeling sort of, "Now what?". :

But thanks so much, the supoort helps. :3

'specially with two o's in it. lol

lol XD My dad really wasn't around when I was younger. I'd be sad if he died, but it wouldn't bother me a whole lot because I don't know him too well :( He just constantly lies and now when he wants to spend time with me, he can't because he created so much debt he had to go work on the pipeline out west and now he's putting up the huge windmills there. My mom, however, if she had died, I'd probably be devastated because she's always been there every day of my life... unlike my father who deemed that the cows we had when I was younger were more important than his family. So because he was so hastey to leave Arizona, he tore his family apart and his life. He's paying for it now because it's too late to change all that. I've got one more year before I leave for NJ, and he lost all the time he needed with me over what? Cattle, sawmills, chasing after empty dreams. Every business he started fell through. So yea, if he didn't force us to move when I was 2, things probably would've been better.

I followed your posts from a certain insensitive fox's page and came upon this. I know I am a stranger, but I just wanted to say something. Don't ever doubt that he is with you, always. I know it doesn't make things any easier, but he is right there. In your heart.

*hugs*

Thank you.
I really miss him very much.

*bearhugs* I know. And you're welcome. Anytime.

I lost my father in 2001 he was my life I wanted to be a pilot just like dad so bad then he got killed in a four wheeler accident and I just didn't fly at all for 7 long years not real aircraft I flew mainly in flight sim 2002 and my current version of flightsim FS2004

I want to be just like my father too. He was a kind loving person who remains my inspiration.

Follow your dreams hun, your father would want you to. :)

I know it's hard, but if your dream is to fly, you should do it. Your father would be proud to know how proud you are to be his child.

*hugs hugs hugs*

If you ever find yourself missing him, and feel like no one understands, note me. I'm a good listener, and I understand how you feel. *hugs!*

I'm just waiting on my medical to clear then There's no stoping me then I have to get 4 cat scans and they all have to come back clear