(I achieved 1,500 viewers on DA, but for the sake of honesty, I decided to post a congratulations here as well.)

Хоё, my pack. ‎

‎I'm back. Yes, it sounds strange, considering it's only been a month since I left. ‎ ‎

To be honest, your little Alpha was really tilted at first. Every day, I was in a bad mood due to the realization of my weaknesses and incompetence. At first, I even considered quitting completely and switching to other topics, but something sobered me up. ‎ ‎

You see, I continued drawing (but to a lesser extent) and posted the resulting works on Boosty, as I couldn't completely move away from padded theme, and I couldn't leave those who supported me with their money. ‎ ‎

At the same time, I was monitoring your comments.

Many respected my choice, some expressed their bitterness. There were also those who tried to explain the problems I mentioned. Although there weren't many comments, they gave me an idea. What exactly do I want? Lately, your Alpha has become so fixated on stats that she's forgotten what's most important. ‎ ‎

I draw for myself. Not for views or likes. ‎ ‎

Yes, I wanted to recharge emotionally from you and your attention, my pack, but I've realized the destructiveness of this addiction. I'm not meant to be the center of attention or compete for attention. Your Alpha is too small and baby for that. She simply wants to exist and enjoy herself. ‎

‎Having realized this, I've finally gotten rid of the negative feelings I used to experience when looking at my stats. I no longer feel jealous of other people's work or angry at my own inability to draw. There's no point in thinking about such things. I just want to enjoy what I see and draw what I can. Even if I'm not growing. Little foxes are still cuter than any tall guys.

What did your Alpha mean by all this? She's finally found her balance and is returning. However, don't expect the same thing as last summer. From now on, I'll draw the way I'm most comfortable. My posting frequency will be significantly lower now, and I'll be posting more polls and events on Boosty. This might sound unfair and even dirty, but I'm an Alpha, so I do what I want. Oh, and I'm also a BAKA. ‎

‎In the meantime, I'd like to thank you for reaching the 1500 mark and introduce one character who might become a frequent guest in my posts.