Somehow managed to make it 40 years on this planet, no idea how...Was born in the very early AM on October 10, 1985...I'm getting up there in terms of age...

As a small mini-rant...Really unsure how much longer I can keep going the way I am, though...

I know some people have it a lot rougher than I do...and some didn't even survive as long as I did, so I should cherish the fact I did make it 40 so far...but I have so very little in terms of self-sufficiency and future survival plans...

Don't have a family of my own, no wife or kids...no job or career, and only barely passed high school with a passably laughable 2.1 GPA of the minimum 2.0 to be allowed to graduate...got no life savings at all, living day to day just trying to make due with what little I got from my job I did save from last year, which in itself was a major disaster...3 years of minimum wage suddenly dropped adruptly when I lost my job and the very next day had kidney stones cause a semi-major surgery...And recently diagnosed with peripheral neuropathy, which is both killing my drawing capacity and making future job applications a major bump in difficulty...nobody wants to hire a cripple who can't lift the usual 50lb. requirement...It's been a rough year, and a rough life...

It hasn't been all bad, however...I still have a few friends around keeping my chin up, occasionally gifting me games, drawings, and being there to talk to and make sure I'm okay...I haven't had a suicidal thought this year, which is a plus...

I have no idea how the future is going to go...I really hope something happens to change things and turn them around...