i empathize greatly with what you went through/are going through now occasionally. Just keep trying to manage it and dissect it in your head, i think that helps? Whatever works best for you. Just know that i also understand. 💗

I'm glad to hear that this resonated :)

good meds do help, this defs depicts a time where I didn't have my med combos and doses locked in yet since things were a lot more volatile when I was younger; being more cognizant of patterns after years is also a bonus lol... despite being self aware, this sort of processing doesnt usually come easy to me and my friends and partners tend to note that I can be pretty cagey, but I think that's kinda part and parcel with not being able to find a therapist i trust enough to share any of that with anyways 😅 long way of saying i hope i can eventually be a little less emotionally constipated and more capable of that sort of introspection every now and then

That's definitely a psychological roller coaster.