I wanted to show Owen Pained by his fire. Now mind you the fire isn't physically hurting him. He doesn't feel it at all. It's like having hair for him. But he does this to himself. He refuses to accept his fire and hates it. He thinks it's ruinned his life. He can't go into buildings, sleep on a bed, get close to people because of his fire. He has to wear the clear metal helmet to be able to do that and that also makes him stand out. He should be glad that one of his own inventions is helping him to lead a normal life but he hates it too thinking he shouldn't have to wear it because he never should have had the fire. He'd like nothing better than to put it out but he can't because if he does he'll die. On top of that he's got Thagirion chasing him wanting the fire back that he thinks Owen stole. Owen would love to give it back, but he can't so he's on the run. He gets into that circular thinking, "If I didn't have this fire I could be normal, but if I get rid of it I'd die. I don't want to die but I can't lead a normal life..." So he keeps saying that over and over. Despite being strong sometimes he will break down like this when no one is around. It's not a pity party. He's above that. It's more like letting his rage out. He does it in private because if anyone saw him it would be a sign of weakness in his mind and as proud as he is he couldn't show that to anyone.