I kind of have this really terrible habit of asking myself all these stupid questions, right?
Like what if... what if there's a spot on my body that I can touch to keep my heart from beating?

Or like what if, what if there's this stray bullet out there that’s gonna come through my window and take me out?
Like what if... what if there's this huge unstoppable comet that’s just gonna like, destroy the Earth and all of us?
Like what... what if that’s happening right now?

How can I avoid all these questions if I don't have that?
Like, who is gonna be here?
Why... who is gonna be there... in the hospital?
Who is gonna tell me that all this is bullshit... it's a dream?
Just a dream.

This is not a joke.
And I'll never sleep.