I've spent my whole life trying and failing to stop being inconvenient and repulsive so people would finally tolerate my presence. But it wasn't enough, so all I could do was to say I was sorry the only way anyone would believe.

It's now been two years since I failed so here I am, I guess.

I don't really know what else to say about this. It was a long-time coming, I was loud about it, and I took people's silence as proof that they actively wanted me dead.
I've mostly shut up since and don't really upload stuff anymore. Posting this is frightening but I had to, for my own sake.