Hello! is me Warfaremachine, i wanted to talk about something what was happening and attacking me for the last years and i need something to vent off because it was the main root of all my delays, all my struggles and all my workflow interruptions since i started to work on this

Gonna make it short as possible but Im physically "fine" just dealing with a bit of overweigth

but more emotionally and legally at war against my mother and his husband

Reason is, One is schizophrenic, and the another is a masochistic respectfully and both where in a VERY toxic relationship where they constantly fight.

NOW everyone knows im living alone from them in the last 6 years already, however im in constant touch with the rest of my brothers, and because im the more economically stable, im the one who lend them a hand, for alot of reasons. but that is not the actual problem... I helped over the years my family economically thanks to this job and spent alot of money trying to improve their quality of life both my mom and his husband always messed up the situation and over the years made the entire family scatter "Scaping" from my mom house, but a mayor problem was my lil brother of 14 yo

He was Alone with a mentally ill woman and a stupid father who had the maturity of teenager and did not realize in the danger my brother was all this time, and him was the roadblock to make my mom take a proper psychiatric treatment, as result of this my mom ended up in a spiral of lies and distrust what set me in a situation where i cannot do much for her who also refused to take a proper treatment, economically i did as much as i could even taking important part of my life savings, and weekly i was involved into a family drama.

this situation actually scalated mid July where a violence domestic lead to my brother into a desesperate situation to scape the house, Luckly the rest of my sisters was nerby and found him by casuallity and both called the police to do the exposition, situation what my mom husband tried to undo. luckly the police noticed the situation and the laws of my country enforces the decision of my brother to not want to stay in their mom home. i got notified of all this situation later that day and i coordinate with my systers to make my lil bro move to my house. since them im fighting his custody and doing psychological interviews with my brother and being at trial by the social services of my country, and i need now to take him to school with not own transport medium, to make matter worse here we have VESPERTINE TURN meaning High School can enter 17PM-22PM cycles meaning he came out from school very late in a not so safe city so i need to go pick him up to take to the bus and literally take a shortcut to the bus trip to arrive just a bit after he lands to go to my home, a 5 miles trip i need to make every day on a bicicle because the place is not safe and the school is in a diferent city, but that is not that annoying considering i need to do some cardio, the problem cames from the harrasment im with my parents what once on a while they appear on school and because the school did not have yet a proper order to forbid my parents not get close by the social services (because here burocracy is SLOOOW) i have to go to school early to prevent my parents to take my brother and they them away from me, is very important to mention what here it respects what the kid want and well he is way more safe with me, while the parents taking him of of the school will lead into another incident where i need to rely on the police again...
I have a restriction order against my mom and his husband, and im in the middle of the custody battle for him

Nothing of this should affect my work plans on a long run, it just delay them in the similar manners im getting delayed today, everyone on my family know my job so luckly i dont need to hide the where abouts of my money income and still have good privacy to work safely on all of this, but im just moving alot here and there

I have good chunk of savings and if my income keep as it is now i will be okay, just i have alot of shit to deal with rn including the fees of a new rent since mine now is not proper to hold 2 people and i need proper study room, and this entire situation of moving back and forth to the school of my brother,

please understand what my delays and my struggles are not just the accumulation of procatinastion and lazyness, i have all this sitution on my back for YEARS what lead me into a constant demotivation, frustrations and unexpected delays on things what should be easier and all of this explode in the moment most inconvenient time (the national economic struggle, the downgrade of patreons due the SFM withdrawal, the lack of content due the experimentation on Blender, several important household appliances exploding at once, me in the struggle to find a new home in few months)
Im getting crushed by several fronts and im trying to stay up with alot of ducktape, i need to work, i need to take care of my brother, and i need to take care of me, please understand my delays, im not having a easy time, and thanks you so much for all your inconditional support, i wanna to release ankha soon just im dealing with all this i need to vent it somehow

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