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old image upload
pencil on inking paper
colored with the GIMP

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a wave rose to a crest in the darkness
its peak repeating
driving steadily
relentlessly
through his mind

he closed his eyes and smiled indulgently,
his breath a vapor of alcohol seeping from his nostrils
a second later he yawned.
it seemed the night was growing old
he pressed his hand to his face and smoothed his whiskers back,
teeth bared and tongue curled

moonlight cast itself around the shadow he sat within
calmed and cooled by a steady breeze from the north
the lines on his face, stress under thin fur
were crossed by a rare smile and deep breath

quietly fascinated
in the cool depths of shadow,
a sense of appreciation came to him

recollection of motivations
years since past
recognition of energies spent
in what may have only been dreams
seeped from fragrant smoke
to fill his mind

cool elements fell in a draft
to surround him once more
soft elements rose in waves
for him to rest upon in comfort

lights condensed into gentle lines
hues gathered into concise spectra
reflections dimmed, became diffuse
glare withdrew into glass tubes
high and distant

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I had imagined it as though it were some distant part of my inner self.
deprived of stable hopes, i gave in to curiosity.
stepping into the dream, i realized nothing there was mine.
something about this makes me hate you.