Remember growing up and being told that you could make anything of your future? The world is your oyster, pretending like that actually means anything. Telling us that if we work hard enough and buckle down we can pull ourselves up by our bootstraps. What bullshit.

Once you’ve grown up, you realize that the only people who are truly given the world are the few who won the birth lottery or some of the lucky ones who had a proper support system and were able to actually buckle down and figure themselves out.

What about the rest of us? Are we doomed to sit back and fight for scraps? Is that really the world we were supposed to have all of this opportunity come from?

This one is a bit more vent art for me cause Ill admit I get really frustrated over how I was always told how smart I was, how Ill always make something of myself. It was to the point that my family always focused on the family members they saw problems with. Because I was too worried about disappointing people or failing, I did my absolute best. What was my prize?

Years of undiagnosed ADHD, being treated like the enemy for being willing to be the black sheep, being ungrateful because I was given the bare minimum in most aspects, but never truly nurtured to follow my passions.

The answers when I confront the people who caused so many of these shortcomings and were suppose to be the ones who too notice and support me? That I wasnt mature enough, I wasnt vocal enough about my wants and needs. I was never given life basics and given the mindset necessary to be successful once I left the nest.

I may be pointing a lot of fingers, but its because Ive spent all of my conscious years up to this point blaming myself for things that really shouldnt fall on my shoulders. I feel like Ive been spinnning my tires for a decade, and Im only just coming around to realize that perhaps it wasnt really all my fault.

Art by tbe truly amazing  Clawdore