WELL... we are here!!! On my way to heal
A lot of things i realized on myself, a lot of things were realized THANKS to my friends (i love u guys). I had a full week of breakdowns like a literal sobbing mess (which was of mocked later by my fresh ex....), but.. certain way of ex's behavior sorta helped me to view them differently. Cheesy jokes bout my family and finances, a literal pleasure in hurting me personally, words like "ull crawl back to me anyway"
nah man.. NAAAH
so my way of thinking shifted from "hurt me all u want i still love and miss u" to "u sucha bitch mate eww" and it helps me a LOT to cope, heal and just move forward! I still have myself, I love myself, I'll meet a better, stronger, more mature person :> certain memories still hurt, some artwork of mine feels like an eyesore, i still cant watch some movies/listen to my soon-not-to-be-so-favorite music band but man. Ill get over it. Ill be watching these movies and series with someone who'll actually value my loyalty, trust and love !
I aint need a cheaty person so quick to switch between partners whenever the older one starts to feel not that exciting. I aint need a person whose words and principles are cheaper than a cup of gas station coffee
But i wouldnt be there if i didnt have my friends. Some of them used to be mutual, some are still mutual, but .. thank yall so much for listening, for being here with me, for being in a call with me for 3-8 hours listening to me cry and my soggy sobby voice messages. If it wasnt for them, i would had shut down completely
I love you guys. Thank you.