(content warning, mental disorders)

In a constant state of anxiety, panic disorder and fight-or-flight-mode since I exist, and he and some other people tell me everything is fine, I am fine, I won't die because I breath weirdly, hyperventilate, do this or do that of wich I'm irrationally scared of. They tell me all my hypochondrical fears don't need to be.
He and they tell me everything's finer than my brain thinks it is.
They tell me I am fine.

So why can't I still never calm down.....?



The right side that's in shadow represents his former self in his past lige that was really broken and traumatized due to life being very harsh on him and his friend and partner.

He went through so much pain and suffering, and I am just traumatized from ...seemingly nothing? Why do I feel so bad and broken if nothing really bad ever happened to me?

I am just traumatized from existing.