This is something I unusually upload.

Lately, I've been feeling quite alone. I had two online friends I really trusted and chatted often, but some stuff happened and even were discovered. One was outed of being a groomer, our conversations were getting instable and I couldn't get along with the drama afterward. The other, a long-time friend, turned out to be a creepier person than I thought, even losing interest and ignoring me for reasons I wish I was mistaking.

Since then, I've been trying to start conversations, but most of the time, without getting what I was expecting. It was ending too soon. And if it wasn't enough, sometimes I struggle to respond because I don't exactly know what to say. Sometimes, I wanna joins conversations from others, but I'll feel like disrupting, especially if they don't know much about me.

At least I have IRL friends where we share a lot, but I feel like I need to take back what I just lost, because I miss it already. Maybe I'll manage to get what I need later, but for now, there's some solitude.

TL;DR:

I lost online friends that turned out to be bad, I don't get the luck to have or join conversations, and I'm still trying to get back what I lost.