No, you're not crazy, this character has no canonical form at all! You can think of the background as being the closest thing to a "true form", if you wish. For context, I have several VRChat avatars that I re-textured with an RGB theme, and I decided to make them all into a single shape-shifting character. Its personality is intended to be the same as mine since it's just a self-insert sona with virtually no lore. This piece was inspired in part by voidpunk stuff, as that kind of thing has interested me for a while. By the way, that image in the top right is a flag I made a while ago!

Also, I've been using _newUser as a username since long before I ever played VRChat, so I didn't choose that because of the trust rank >:/