Actually yes, I do constantly ;-;

i know that feeling

That is called anxiety :s

Oh boy, I know that feeling so well :) That feeling when you feel like luckiest man on Earth and still can't comprehend how the hell you manage to do all this....and wonder what minuscule thing will ruin everything and why it didn't happened yet.

Yeah, and that's why could communication matters

Yes, happens to me from time to time.

Yes. When things are going well, that generally means something bad is about to happen because everything going well is an anomaly.

'scuse me while I call out my SO with this

Yes. Almost always. Even at the moments like this.
Maybe because I'm Russian and because I live in Russia. And my lover too. We hate the government. We hate politic freaks. We don't trust anyone but those who share our values.

I know how it feel all too well.
I wish both of you all the best, hopefully this hateful idiocy ends sooner than later

Yip, sometimes I feel like that too

Every time things are starting to go well I get scared that something really bad's about to happen and ruin everything.
And it always does.

gorgeous work
shut up brain, i wanna sleep *yawn*

Yes. Even when I have nothing I should be worrying about, I still worry. A fair chunk of the hair on my head has gone white over the last decade due to stress. Fuckery is always afoot somewhere, and often imminent.

I feel that

Always. I'm constantly afraid I'm gonna do something to screw it all up.

Yes. I can never enjoy happy times because this.

Yes and it ended with the worst years of my existence

Oh no D:

That’s sadly common in people with anxiety! Our brains worry about everything and then when there’s nothing to worry about it worries about why!

Yes, sadly.

Many times. Hell, I feel this even as I'm writing this, despite of the rational side reassuring me that everything is okay, it's going well, you have no reason to fear.

Yet the doubts always come back, louder, until you beat them back with hope. Sure, it's temporary, but that's enough. As long as you find the moment to hope again, even for a short while.

That leopard guy is ripped man

Heh, no. But I do have those moments of dejavu but more in a precognition sense and it's always followed by something bad happening. Even though only that bad thing I predicted never comes true over half the time thankfully. It can be as mundane as I dreamt I was out on a walk in a specific location and thinking of what I ate for breakfast that day and how I forgot I wanted something to go with it, then I sneezed and then a car crashed down the road. Or I get a real bad nose bleed and don't have any tissues on hand.
Only for one of those last two things to not happen depending on which it was.
It's really weird, I'll have random bits of my dreams seemingly plot out and correctly predict a very specific string of events in a very certain sequence and all of them will play out in exactly that same order. Only for whatever bad thing is at the end almost never happening. And sometimes even stuff that happens afterwards will end up coming true from a dream even after there's no bad incident.
I have no idea what this even is or if it means anything but I'm starting to wonder if maybe it comes from my innate ability I've always had with my Autism, especially as a child, where I can see and perfectly plot out and make out shapes and colors and patterns and distinguish them more easily even amidst chaos and dissary when no one else can seem to concentrate on these patterns amidst the sensory overload. And that's especially impressive considering that I'VE always struggled with sensory overload and sensory motor issues especially in regards to Touch and Sound.

I guess I'm just really wired well together but in a very complex way that's rare even among those misfits like me. Even though I can never see myself as anything special and barely have a self esteem or healthy mental image of myself to begin with. I actually have an Inferiority Complex if anything with how unbelievably harsh I am on myself and very little sense of self worth many a time even to this day.

I've had some bit roller coaster moments in my life. Where there were great highs. I'm feeling top of the world and things are nice then circumstances tear it down in a big way. So it sticks now where I look over and wonder.. things are going.. to good....