You feeling alright?
I'm a lil bit concerned about you

I am, thanks. I like painting stuff that touches on very dark things I've experienced in my past...and I suppose still am experiencing to a degree, but this painting is meant to be a bit of a cathartic release. Life's still hard but I'm keeping my head up these days, even when I post stuff like this.

Definitely healthy to have a cathartic experience every now and then, and art is an interesting way to process it as you can come back to it when needed. I'd like to commission such pieces but I know it can be very taxing to draw such emotional pieces. Hope you are doing well and may we all get better together.

Invoking

The inner battle is always constant, stay strong bro; i know the feeling.

Mood

Mental pain is harder to bare then physical...

I wasted 5 years, being strung along by a man. I wanted to kill myself, by the end of it. I feel you. :/ *hugs*

*hug*

Poor bean :(
hopefully you'll feel better soon
i can quite relate to this

The hint of color through the blinds is a nice touch.

It really is. A little bit of cozy cave-dwelling can be self-care, but it's so dang easy to just bunker up and lose huge amounts of time, and then the first time you poke your head out again and feel the sun it's like, "Why didn't I do this a long time ago?"

Yeah I feel like doing this right now …… but we have to stay strong …. Talk, to those going thru something similar….. it’s a dark world . There’s lights around . If there’s anything going on , know there’s a light 💡 here .

This brought me memories of a character I made years ago called my "pain persona" that I used as vent art and represent pain I had at the time.
The sword through the torso especially speaks to me because I went through a long period of chest pains.
Wishing you all the best <3

This is dark… yet an epic piece of art as well.

Keep your chin up and keep fighting. I wish you all the best.

Expressive piece and rendering. 🧡

Gods. Superb subtle lighting. We all have shit that stays with us. :( Powerful personal piece.

this goes so hard........

12 years

Inspiringly and gut-wrenchingly beautiful stuff. Thank you.

Hang in there, everyone.

Beautiful work - I hope you’re ok ❤️

I'm on my way back up. Thanks for the kind words, Riley <3

Remember, whatever it is, it's at most a dead-end, not, and never will be, the end.

Yeahh

Thank you

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Would that I could pull this sword out of me and let myself live

Time doesn't heal all wounds...it just teaches you how to live with the pain...

There are times I wish I were strong enough to do this.
People don't want to love broken/disabled individuals.
So I remain alone.. at 40.. and will always be alone.
If I had the strength of character, I'd do this to end it all, because my circumstances will never change.. I will always be undesirable and alone..

Sorry to hear, friend. I don't know what specifically you're going through but please don't call yourself broken. You aren't unless you convince yourself you are. If there's anything i've learned, its that life will surprise you and its always worth sticking around. Listen to anybody that went that far and came back: They ALL say how precious life is and how glad they are that they're still around.

I really don't want this painting to encourage such thoughts. Its just meant to be a visual metaphor for mental anguish, not a literal promotion of self harm. Please take care of yourself and fwiw, I'm glad you're around and I got to read your comment and connect with you briefly.

Strength of character is exactly what you're doing, persevering despite all the pain. You aren't alone in feeling these things and that's all I want to say with this painting. I wish you the best <3

The aura here is entirely different

Seems like an awful long time to be stabbing yerself in the chest for

The final stroke. No further comment needed.

We must all face what lies within to confront its pale magnitude; for some the beast there squeezes with its teeth, a gentle warning that we should not absolve ourselves of fear, pain, or anxiety. My own predator, I keep it locked away yet it mocks me with the pieces it has already taken.

A lot of times people don't really want to end it all. But they want out of the situation they are in.

All I can say say is that this is so powerfully evocative. It drags my emotions to the surface and puts them under a spotlight every time I look back at this tab.

I feel you

*hugs too* this painting isn't entirely colorless, that's brave of you to paint.

Sometimes I open the blinds to let the colors in, only to be reminded they cannot meet with eyes that have gone colorblind.

I've had days where I did this to myself, mentally speaking. Stupid things I said or did shamed me and I felt like putting a sword through my guts- metaphorically speaking.

The shame, the self loathing, just not worth it. But something I had to go through to get beyond it.

Yes, I think I understand you friend.

Beautiful piece, as someone who was transitioned to remote work in 2019 and feels like they are cut off from the world this speaks to me. The slivers of color through the closed blinds and the sterile empty yet claustrophobic room are masterful.

i see colours outside.

yet in is where i want to stay.

Reminds me of a movie Harakiri (and the ritual ofc). Brings me peace strangly

Incredibly powerful and moving. Your ability to express deep emotions through art is truly remarkable. I can see that this painting carries a lot of personal meaning, and I just want to say that your strength in sharing these feelings is inspiring. No matter how heavy the past or present may feel, you’re not alone—your art resonates with many, and your voice matters. Keep creating, keep expressing, and know that there are people who appreciate and support you.

Thank you. It helps a lot to read stuff like this when things are as rough as they are now. Thanks.

The colourful world, just out of reach. Was it rejected by choice, circumstance or by ignorance?..

Oof, this is quite visceral.
Felt this way a lot during the past 5 years - definitely an insane time to be alive
Hoping everyone find a way/ways for themselves to find their purpose to keep going

I want to do this sometimes. But suddenly I'm fine now. It's crazy how quickly your mood can change and your will to live teeters between being very strong or non-existent. I'm glad you are still with us making beautiful art! The mood and shading in this piece is touching.

for my recent five year felony running away into a country without a name- this heals...
thank you. its a long story, maybe i'll come back to sing it here. this is great. again thank you.

Hope you are doing better Lofi. You are an inspiration, and one of my favorite artists.

Sometimes, the most sublime statements can be said without a single solitary word or syllable uttered.
THIS is the mark of True Art.

I firmly believe it's in these moments when our truest humanity shines through, whether that be consistent of good optimistic or bad pessimistic vibes.
You have done a truly mesmerizing justice to the psyche with this illustration. Everything is just so gloriously depicted, despite the harrowing subject matter at stake. Seppuku is no joke... I believe somebody else above me mentioned that tiny hint of colors peeking through the blindshades and I agree, that's a very powerful subtle statement to roll with. Abandoning all those bright, beautiful colors in favor of utter cold & grey monochrome... The style in which you shaded this piece is remarkable as well, so scribbly and chaotic, perhaps reminiscent of so many scattered thoughts and feeling passing through their mind all at once, going far too fast to keep up. I can say without any shadow of a doubt that the feeling is ENTIRELY relatable. Stressful anxiety comes in so many forms. This one is most visually arresting through and through. Thank you for sharing a piece of your heart & soul with this well-rendered work of art. My heart goes out to you, fellow artist. Hopefully things get better for you way sooner than later!

after sustaining a five year felony as an alien, this really really really helped me live through today.
I challenged the world with my full faculty of mind red teaming against the airports and ultimately pushing through the thorns that held the border. This helps so much. Thank you.