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EMERGENCY COMMISSIONS (VENT)
Hello I just experienced something traumatic as fuck and I need money I'm going to be much less friendly as far as typing in this so I'm sorry.
I'm willing to do anything right now, but I will be charging a higher price for any comics as I feel they've been underpriced currently, however I will be doing single image comms for my current prices at the moment.
I will draw any fetish barring underage characters or incest. I really do not care. If you haven't seen my art here are some examples but be warned I mostly draw vore:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/57189065/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/57812621/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/58039017/
Huge vent incoming, tl;dr at the bottom:
I really, really, really do not like talking about myself or my life. There is almost nothing good I can say. From start to finish it has been hell. I have almost no family, have lost the closest people to myself over and over, recently lost the majority of my found family due to being in a severe depression and being ghosted for a year as a punishment. I have been abused in every way imaginable since childhood- yes, EVERY way- and have developed severe metal health issues that impact my physical wellbeing because of it. At every turn I am met with some sort of cruelty in one form or another from circumstances outside of my control, as if God Himself doesn't want to see me exist.
I struggle with "normal" full time employment. If I undergo any type of prolonged stress I start to experience severe psychosis and my medication only helps so much. I am afraid to change anything about my medication as doing so has sent me to the ER several times in the past. I have nearly lost my life from forcing myself to do what I am "supposed" to do as a functioning member of society. It is apparently something that I CAN'T do. Even so, I have been searching and searching for a job I have felt I could handle, and right as I feel I am about to get something that I want, I am of course met with a whole new traumatic life threatening experience.
Today when I was at my retail job I was robbed at gunpoint, and I can only say that I felt that was in the top five worst things to have happened to me. I thought I was going to die. I thought he would shoot my manager and then me as he made demands. I thought even if we did everything that he wanted he would kill us anyways. I thought I would never see my only remaining family member or the few friends I have left again. I will not be returning to my retail job.
In addition to having a gun pointed to my head, there has been severe weather which had prevented me from going into work at the start of the month, so I was behind in funds to begin with. I had wanted to just work on what I currently owe at my own pace and not take anything else until I did, but that is just not in the cards for me. Art is the only thing I've had confidence in, and the only thing I've thought I could realistically make a career out of. It is the only thing I think I can say I have felt passionate about doing and actually PROUD of.
When I first started taking commissions, I made the mistake of SEVERELY underpricing my work. I am capable of making sketches within seconds to minutes as I used to work on a webcomic- the reason I learned to draw in the first place. So I timed myself making a drawing, then priced my work at 10$ per hour. A huge mistake. To make up for the small amount of money compared to the time it takes to make the drawings, I end up having to take many things on at once a lot of the time; and with the mental break I've had preventing me from drawing properly the past two months I am severely behind. I NEED to rework my prices. I CAN'T work at TOP SPEED for EVERY drawing, and thinking I could was insane and leads to me getting burnout at least every other month.
I apologize for the rant but I feel like I can only hold in so much, and pretending I don't have a myriad of problems in my life makes my disappearances and long turnaround times confusing. My brain is a rotting piece of shrapnel with every horrible thing punching more and more holes into it and corrupting the metal further. I worry that one day it will completely disappear but that is another matter. Thank you to anyone who puts up with me.
TL;DR: I nearly died today. My work was cancelled the start of this month. I will not be going back to my in person job. I will not be leaving my house for a while, and I need money to survive.
I'm willing to do anything right now, but I will be charging a higher price for any comics as I feel they've been underpriced currently, however I will be doing single image comms for my current prices at the moment.
I will draw any fetish barring underage characters or incest. I really do not care. If you haven't seen my art here are some examples but be warned I mostly draw vore:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/57189065/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/57812621/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/58039017/
Huge vent incoming, tl;dr at the bottom:
I really, really, really do not like talking about myself or my life. There is almost nothing good I can say. From start to finish it has been hell. I have almost no family, have lost the closest people to myself over and over, recently lost the majority of my found family due to being in a severe depression and being ghosted for a year as a punishment. I have been abused in every way imaginable since childhood- yes, EVERY way- and have developed severe metal health issues that impact my physical wellbeing because of it. At every turn I am met with some sort of cruelty in one form or another from circumstances outside of my control, as if God Himself doesn't want to see me exist.
I struggle with "normal" full time employment. If I undergo any type of prolonged stress I start to experience severe psychosis and my medication only helps so much. I am afraid to change anything about my medication as doing so has sent me to the ER several times in the past. I have nearly lost my life from forcing myself to do what I am "supposed" to do as a functioning member of society. It is apparently something that I CAN'T do. Even so, I have been searching and searching for a job I have felt I could handle, and right as I feel I am about to get something that I want, I am of course met with a whole new traumatic life threatening experience.
Today when I was at my retail job I was robbed at gunpoint, and I can only say that I felt that was in the top five worst things to have happened to me. I thought I was going to die. I thought he would shoot my manager and then me as he made demands. I thought even if we did everything that he wanted he would kill us anyways. I thought I would never see my only remaining family member or the few friends I have left again. I will not be returning to my retail job.
In addition to having a gun pointed to my head, there has been severe weather which had prevented me from going into work at the start of the month, so I was behind in funds to begin with. I had wanted to just work on what I currently owe at my own pace and not take anything else until I did, but that is just not in the cards for me. Art is the only thing I've had confidence in, and the only thing I've thought I could realistically make a career out of. It is the only thing I think I can say I have felt passionate about doing and actually PROUD of.
When I first started taking commissions, I made the mistake of SEVERELY underpricing my work. I am capable of making sketches within seconds to minutes as I used to work on a webcomic- the reason I learned to draw in the first place. So I timed myself making a drawing, then priced my work at 10$ per hour. A huge mistake. To make up for the small amount of money compared to the time it takes to make the drawings, I end up having to take many things on at once a lot of the time; and with the mental break I've had preventing me from drawing properly the past two months I am severely behind. I NEED to rework my prices. I CAN'T work at TOP SPEED for EVERY drawing, and thinking I could was insane and leads to me getting burnout at least every other month.
I apologize for the rant but I feel like I can only hold in so much, and pretending I don't have a myriad of problems in my life makes my disappearances and long turnaround times confusing. My brain is a rotting piece of shrapnel with every horrible thing punching more and more holes into it and corrupting the metal further. I worry that one day it will completely disappear but that is another matter. Thank you to anyone who puts up with me.
TL;DR: I nearly died today. My work was cancelled the start of this month. I will not be going back to my in person job. I will not be leaving my house for a while, and I need money to survive.
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Holy fuck, that's awful. Hope you get a lot of attention on this. Don't worry if you need to take extra time on my comm either -- I understand delays even in the best of situations, and you have PLENTY of reason to focus on things that might be less intensive at the moment.
Stay safe out there, hopefully nothing like this happens again. 💔
Stay safe out there, hopefully nothing like this happens again. 💔
Jesus. That is a hell of a lot that you are going through. I can only imagine how frightening that would be and I'm glad that at least physically you were unharmed in the holdup. *offers gentle sune snug*
With any luck you may be able to work out a better pricing structure that is fair on you and your time spent <3
If you would like, I am happy to signal boost this journal for you
With any luck you may be able to work out a better pricing structure that is fair on you and your time spent <3
If you would like, I am happy to signal boost this journal for you
If you would like to. I have recently updated my prices (which I kind of forgot but as I was looking through them moments ago I realized I was more content with them than I had remembered) and have just edited my commission journal to make a bit more sense (hopefully)
I read the rant. It’s really unfortunate with what happened to you. No one should have to go through that. I also read that your doing some “emergency coms”. I don’t know how long your waiting list is but I’d like to take a commission at some point from you. You have an amazing artstyle that’s always a treat to see. I know it’s quite stressing too having a lot of others waiting for their commission. I do hope you’ll be able to push through and get them done. Sorry if I sound rude or anything, I’m not the best at putting words together and such. I just know that you’ve got it really hard and it sucks to see someone such as yourself going through this pain. I can only hope that you can get better. Good luck with your future endeavours.
Not rude at all, I thank you for your words qwq
If you're interested in a commission I can either take it now or down the line after finishing a couple I've gotten if you would like, but I do think I am currently in a position where I should be financially safe for the month (I hope)
Fingers crossed the job I was looking at goes well qwq
If you're interested in a commission I can either take it now or down the line after finishing a couple I've gotten if you would like, but I do think I am currently in a position where I should be financially safe for the month (I hope)
Fingers crossed the job I was looking at goes well qwq
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