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All I saw that day was darkness. Unable to find my way back and just falling deeper and deeper. There was no light at the end of that tunnel. I was alone in my mind and all I felt was a dream...
I'm not to sure how many of you experienced anything like I did... But it's as close to death as I can get, which I'd rather not do again. This vent drawing is what I basically saw. Nothing but darkness. Literally...
Quick vent drawing, had a dumb emotional moment. ):
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This happened a few weeks ago when I had one of the worst moments in my life. I almost blacked out from low iron and low hemoglobin. It felt like I wasn't going to come back if I didn't have parents in the same room as me. Last thing I remember was that I was starting to fall, then the blackout moment, and then being dragged to the couch. Though I can't remember if I was screaming "I can't hear, I can't hear." or just groaning loudly. But yeah, it was scary since the first thing to go was my sight and hearing. :/ But after all the hospital visits, the two blood transfusions, and the iron transfusions, I've been getting better. Haven't had any sort of dizzy spell since then. :3
I just felt like drawing this last night because I did have a small breakdown after thinking quite a bit. Mostly about family issues. To give a little insight, we had to sell things, take things back, and take saved up penny's in to help pay the light bill this month. Most of the money that was used during my ordeal was used on -me- to go into the hospitals, to get the medicines, etc. I know family is supposed to be there for you, but I can't help but feel horrible for dragging everyone in with me, when I was the one having the problems and unable to help myself...
I guess I'm just not used to accepting help, be it for medical or... anything really. Though I really do appreciate any and all help, I just don't know how to react.
So thank you guys. Lots. <333
I'm not to sure how many of you experienced anything like I did... But it's as close to death as I can get, which I'd rather not do again. This vent drawing is what I basically saw. Nothing but darkness. Literally...
Quick vent drawing, had a dumb emotional moment. ):
Edit:
This happened a few weeks ago when I had one of the worst moments in my life. I almost blacked out from low iron and low hemoglobin. It felt like I wasn't going to come back if I didn't have parents in the same room as me. Last thing I remember was that I was starting to fall, then the blackout moment, and then being dragged to the couch. Though I can't remember if I was screaming "I can't hear, I can't hear." or just groaning loudly. But yeah, it was scary since the first thing to go was my sight and hearing. :/ But after all the hospital visits, the two blood transfusions, and the iron transfusions, I've been getting better. Haven't had any sort of dizzy spell since then. :3
I just felt like drawing this last night because I did have a small breakdown after thinking quite a bit. Mostly about family issues. To give a little insight, we had to sell things, take things back, and take saved up penny's in to help pay the light bill this month. Most of the money that was used during my ordeal was used on -me- to go into the hospitals, to get the medicines, etc. I know family is supposed to be there for you, but I can't help but feel horrible for dragging everyone in with me, when I was the one having the problems and unable to help myself...
I guess I'm just not used to accepting help, be it for medical or... anything really. Though I really do appreciate any and all help, I just don't know how to react.
So thank you guys. Lots. <333
Category Artwork (Digital) / Animal related (non-anthro)
Species Tiger
Size 900 x 900px
File Size 169.2 kB
Well, no, it's not. >: I think it was the fact that I overreacted and just wasn't thinking clearly last night. The image is basically what I saw when I had my blackout a couple weeks ago. Just couldn't bring myself to draw it, no matter how much it tried digging at the back of my mind.
Bolemic... Lol. That got me laughing. xD
Yeah, that's what they said after almost all the testing they put me through. You'd think they'd find all that out after the first test or something like that. They were finding everything late. Which was hurting my arms... Bad enough I've been poked and stabbed at least 25 times by now. Just got back from an iron transfusion a few minutes ago too. *quivers* I think I've had enough needles poking me for a few years. ):
Yeah, that's what they said after almost all the testing they put me through. You'd think they'd find all that out after the first test or something like that. They were finding everything late. Which was hurting my arms... Bad enough I've been poked and stabbed at least 25 times by now. Just got back from an iron transfusion a few minutes ago too. *quivers* I think I've had enough needles poking me for a few years. ):
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im not a fan of needles AT ALL
i would have passed out from being poked like twice. second needle, id have been done haha.
but yea, my brother had passed out during work and had to go to the hospital, and that was the reason for it. so it was a pretty big lightbulb when you had described the same. fff
you'll feel alot better once they tell you how to stabilize that im sure. :>
im not a fan of needles AT ALL
i would have passed out from being poked like twice. second needle, id have been done haha.
but yea, my brother had passed out during work and had to go to the hospital, and that was the reason for it. so it was a pretty big lightbulb when you had described the same. fff
you'll feel alot better once they tell you how to stabilize that im sure. :>
Yeah, I was about to call it a day when they had to reneedle me for my IV. The first one swollen up over night when I was in the ER. Someone was about to get their head ripped off if they kept missing. >->
Yikes, I hope he's alright now. ): It can be some really scary shit to go through.
I've been out of the ER for a little bit now, been eating a lot more red meats and taking iron meds with iron vitamins like they said to do. It get's difficult though when there isn't any meat in the house but it's a slow process from getting my hemoglobin up. It was at 6.6 when I was in the ER. They let me go once it got to 8. I don't know where it's at now though. Going to need to go get retested soon. *twitch* So far, feeling a lot better, so I'm hoping it's good now. xD;
Yikes, I hope he's alright now. ): It can be some really scary shit to go through.
I've been out of the ER for a little bit now, been eating a lot more red meats and taking iron meds with iron vitamins like they said to do. It get's difficult though when there isn't any meat in the house but it's a slow process from getting my hemoglobin up. It was at 6.6 when I was in the ER. They let me go once it got to 8. I don't know where it's at now though. Going to need to go get retested soon. *twitch* So far, feeling a lot better, so I'm hoping it's good now. xD;
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