went to the beach today, since the weather was beautiful...since my dad was cremated, i wasn't able to see him at a cemetery...so i walked the boardwalk all the way to the end, alone...i stood at the end, watchin the seagulls flying around...i started thinkin bout my dad, how everytime he n mom went to the beach, she would have to take pics of the seagulls...i had one flyin around me for awhile, which made me cry...i cried for a few minutes, thinkin bout him n missing him...i turned n saw them flyin around the lighthouse so i had to take a pic in memory of him...it made me smile thru my tears...after i took the pic, i closed my eyes n thanked my dad for being there for me thru everything, n that i missed him so much...i felt like something had lifted off my shoulders after i thanked him, like he took some of my stress from me...