I said I was done with music
Had to let these demons out or I was gonna lose it
Took my music down cause no one ever listened
Yeah I've been doing this for years, but I'm still in the trenches
Not to mention..
I've always nitpicked every song I have written,
these lyrics that I am spitting always sound like shit to me and it is hard to think that I am worth anything
when the demons in my brain want to tell me that I'm never gonna change
stay the same

I've hated myself for such a long time
Always fighting the day, why am I alive?
thought I was going insane and maybe I am
so you should just stay away and never see me again.

I am just the bad guy, always lost in my mind.
No, I'll never be fine.. said this all before, but I'm sure
That I'm the bad guy, never found the right time
wishing that I would die, but I'm still alive so I'll try
but I'm the bad guy.

I told you that I am nothing, but you never understood that I was never joking
it was never for attention I was always choking,
but I faked a fucking smile to pretend I'm coping

and I'm getting colder every day that I awaken,
its turning into others, not just me that I am hating
distancing myself from everyone that is around me
cause I'm better off alone, release my hand, I'm drowning.
I'm just a mess oh my god

And I know I'm dying soon, I just feel it in my bones and I doubt that you will ever miss me
when I die, don't pretend you were my friend, I was waiting for the end,
and you weren't there when I was breathing.