I don't know why it is like this with me. But every time I am somewhere in a group or start doing something while interacting in a calm, soft, fragile, peaceful environment or with such a person, and something from the general "joyful" or "pleasant" (in quotes because I don't know what it is), then dreams with war actions and sounds start scrolling in my head. I immediately come into a stressful state, I want to run, not stay in the open space, shout something, and all around there are explosions of gunshots in a closed room, distant bursts in my direction and I need to do something myself. I don't know why and where it comes from. But it is stuck in my head. Similarly, sometimes I fall asleep and already like hallucinations I start to hear all this, shuddering from a "bang" somewhere nearby. And all this sounds natural, not like in some movies or games, but a natural sound of gunfire that can only be heard with the ears. A crushing, ringing, clanging explosion of weapons.