Hello, I'm sorry to say this, but my commissions are closed. I won't be taking any more commission work, and I sincerely hope never to do so again.

My artistic journey began in 2014, driven by the desire to become a well-known artist and to earn a sufficient income. I’ve tried to dedicate enough time to the creative process all these years, but I've realized that it drains me more than it fulfills me.

I registered on various websites and worked on developing myself. It even seemed at times that I was on the verge of breaking through, that soon I would be able to live the way I wanted. But unfortunately, in the pursuit of money that I so desperately needed, I lost touch with myself and my passion for art. I've been through a lot—disrespect for myself as an artist, working for peanuts, dealing with people who used me for free sketches and then disappeared, and those who tried to scam me. I never felt any fulfillment in this work. Often, my efforts didn’t please either me or the client, and it only got worse with time. I tried to take on old commissions, but they felt like a noose around my neck, choking me more and more.

I had to go through two courses of antidepressants just to stop feeling empty and indifferent to everything, including my own life. (This wasn’t just because of art but also due to many personal problems). Eventually, I realized that I wanted to end this, for good. I didn’t draw for six months, and only recently did I touch a canvas again, out of my own desire.

Finally, I felt what it’s like to draw for myself, to be my own client, and to create what I enjoy. A story has started to form in my mind, and in the future, I want to turn it into a book or a comic. The drawing I made is one of the main characters.

If you happened to read this to the end, thank you very much