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Hello my loyal Patreons/Followers/Watchers, it is time I address my long hiatus and silence.
Lawsuit, Health and Depression :
I have not done art in quite awhile and have been very down in life recently. I'm suffering from some sort of serious depression where I feel like im drifting away in bed every second of my life, while unable to get up or do anything. On top of that I'm stressed, I'm stressed that I have to be alone and fight a lawsuit against my upstairs neighbors that has made my life a living hell with their noise. My parents think im overreacting or thinking too much. Due to the noise I have been unable to sleep. And without sleep I have no energy, my health is failing and my stress and depression is stuck in a vicious cycle. It's pretty self explanatory. I lost interest in art and anything NSFW, at least for now. I don't want to be like this, I want to be my healthy old self again. This is a prison, I feel like im in a mental and emotional prison while my physical body is deteriorating. I'm starting to worry alot as my face has changed and iv lost alot of hair due to all of this agony and weight. It makes me look at myself as ugly and I feel hopeless and in pain.
Twitter :
On top of that I recently lost my main Twitter account. I posted there quite often but it got taken down with no reason. Iv been trying to get it back since and iv messaged them but gotten no response. Others like me who drew stuff I drew got their accounts reinstated but why not me...I feel like the world is out to get or kill me...
Army :
On the 4th of July 2024, I'll be gone even longer, and even more silent. Because I'll be conscripted. Country mandatory army service. I'll be on an island and isolated. Won't be able to come home for some time and phone-usage is very very limited. I'll update if I can. Ofcourse, I'm stressed by it too..and very nervous. I don't think getting scolded there daily and shouted at while I do hard physical tasks with a degrading body is not very healthy for my overall being..heh
Since most of my peers and close friends are overseas, I feel like im losing them too. I hear about them getting married, moving out and one by one I'm left behind. I'm so scared of losing people again. Everyone moves on and I just...can't.
I can't even go back home to my parents nor my room and bed because I can no longer live with my family due to my neighbors harassing me. They are killing me and the law is not doing anything about it. I hate this country. And now I'm forced to serve and protect people that try to kill me. People that made my life miserable! These neighbors aren't even from my country.
Why do I need to waste 2 years of my life at my lowest of low point to protect people I wish were dead. This is NOT FAIR.
Closing :
I still have so much I want to do. I want to fix my health, my body, my face and hair, I want to finish all the owed Commissions and Art I have kept as WIPs. I want to grow again on Twitter and get the account back, but I don't know how. I want to be the old spicy bright self again...All I can do rn is try, and fix things one by one. While everything else stresses and worries me. Even little things like "Will my audience still remember my name anymore" these things kill me.
Owed Commission List :
Sugar's Duo Comm
Sync's Duo Comm
Cosmic's Solo (Twitter)
IrisRose's Duo (Discord)
FoxyGamer's Solo (Discord)
I'm currently unable to contact Cosmic, we spoke in Twitter DMs and we'll...that got wiped away. If you can contact me again please do so.
Furvie's Discord :
https://discord.com/invite/AG2wGyJA28
This is my Discord where Iv kept mostly silent but open. I have yet to plug it in a long time, feel free to join and swim around in it!
Furvie's Public Telegram :
https://t.me/Furvieverse
Furvieverse is basically the story I'm trying to tell about my world and characters. I'm certain most of my audience only know them for NSFW stuff but not the general overall story.
Closing again :
I'll be away for some time due to Army taking most of my time. 2 years. But I'll be more free after the first 4 months. My Discord is open but quite dead for now, the Telegram channel is also quite new as its a public one that hasn't been worked on yet.
I feel like the world around me that Iv so passionately built and cherished and thrived in is being crumbled into dust and fading into nothing. I feel so lonely and that people I talk to no longer love and want to make a connection with me. Like a dog on the outside looking in.
I just feel so alone, resentful, angry, like crying all the time and lost. I'm so overwhelmed and no matter how much I rest, I'm tired. But remembering I still have BUSY with life people that barely know me still care about me being alive is just holding my mind together.
Feel free to directly DM me or comment, or reach out. I'll be busy, but I'll try to read it and respond if I can. 🧡❤️ Thanks for letting me stay in your space and feed for the past few years. 🐕🫂
I feel like I failed myself and my family and all of you guys. I was given 6 weeks to make a beautiful render of Mr and my close fur friends but all I can draw now is a picture of me crying like the mess I am.
I'm sorry if this is so rushed. I'm less than an hour before I lose access to my laptop
~ Mocha Furvie
(I am ashamed and feel pathetic for ranting about life like this. If you'd like to contact me on Telegram or Discord it's @ Furvie. If you can't find me. Feel free to comment your name and I'll try and find you when I can)
Thank you all for loving me, loving what I do. Supporting me financially, emotionally and mentally. The Furvie you know is (FOR NOW) gone. I wish to bring him back as soon as I get my life back in check. I owe it to you all and myself that I need to be back...Furvie needs to be back. ❤️ Theres still so much I want to do and share.
Lawsuit, Health and Depression :
I have not done art in quite awhile and have been very down in life recently. I'm suffering from some sort of serious depression where I feel like im drifting away in bed every second of my life, while unable to get up or do anything. On top of that I'm stressed, I'm stressed that I have to be alone and fight a lawsuit against my upstairs neighbors that has made my life a living hell with their noise. My parents think im overreacting or thinking too much. Due to the noise I have been unable to sleep. And without sleep I have no energy, my health is failing and my stress and depression is stuck in a vicious cycle. It's pretty self explanatory. I lost interest in art and anything NSFW, at least for now. I don't want to be like this, I want to be my healthy old self again. This is a prison, I feel like im in a mental and emotional prison while my physical body is deteriorating. I'm starting to worry alot as my face has changed and iv lost alot of hair due to all of this agony and weight. It makes me look at myself as ugly and I feel hopeless and in pain.
Twitter :
On top of that I recently lost my main Twitter account. I posted there quite often but it got taken down with no reason. Iv been trying to get it back since and iv messaged them but gotten no response. Others like me who drew stuff I drew got their accounts reinstated but why not me...I feel like the world is out to get or kill me...
Army :
On the 4th of July 2024, I'll be gone even longer, and even more silent. Because I'll be conscripted. Country mandatory army service. I'll be on an island and isolated. Won't be able to come home for some time and phone-usage is very very limited. I'll update if I can. Ofcourse, I'm stressed by it too..and very nervous. I don't think getting scolded there daily and shouted at while I do hard physical tasks with a degrading body is not very healthy for my overall being..heh
Since most of my peers and close friends are overseas, I feel like im losing them too. I hear about them getting married, moving out and one by one I'm left behind. I'm so scared of losing people again. Everyone moves on and I just...can't.
I can't even go back home to my parents nor my room and bed because I can no longer live with my family due to my neighbors harassing me. They are killing me and the law is not doing anything about it. I hate this country. And now I'm forced to serve and protect people that try to kill me. People that made my life miserable! These neighbors aren't even from my country.
Why do I need to waste 2 years of my life at my lowest of low point to protect people I wish were dead. This is NOT FAIR.
Closing :
I still have so much I want to do. I want to fix my health, my body, my face and hair, I want to finish all the owed Commissions and Art I have kept as WIPs. I want to grow again on Twitter and get the account back, but I don't know how. I want to be the old spicy bright self again...All I can do rn is try, and fix things one by one. While everything else stresses and worries me. Even little things like "Will my audience still remember my name anymore" these things kill me.
Owed Commission List :
Sugar's Duo Comm
Sync's Duo Comm
Cosmic's Solo (Twitter)
IrisRose's Duo (Discord)
FoxyGamer's Solo (Discord)
I'm currently unable to contact Cosmic, we spoke in Twitter DMs and we'll...that got wiped away. If you can contact me again please do so.
Furvie's Discord :
https://discord.com/invite/AG2wGyJA28
This is my Discord where Iv kept mostly silent but open. I have yet to plug it in a long time, feel free to join and swim around in it!
Furvie's Public Telegram :
https://t.me/Furvieverse
Furvieverse is basically the story I'm trying to tell about my world and characters. I'm certain most of my audience only know them for NSFW stuff but not the general overall story.
Closing again :
I'll be away for some time due to Army taking most of my time. 2 years. But I'll be more free after the first 4 months. My Discord is open but quite dead for now, the Telegram channel is also quite new as its a public one that hasn't been worked on yet.
I feel like the world around me that Iv so passionately built and cherished and thrived in is being crumbled into dust and fading into nothing. I feel so lonely and that people I talk to no longer love and want to make a connection with me. Like a dog on the outside looking in.
I just feel so alone, resentful, angry, like crying all the time and lost. I'm so overwhelmed and no matter how much I rest, I'm tired. But remembering I still have BUSY with life people that barely know me still care about me being alive is just holding my mind together.
Feel free to directly DM me or comment, or reach out. I'll be busy, but I'll try to read it and respond if I can. 🧡❤️ Thanks for letting me stay in your space and feed for the past few years. 🐕🫂
I feel like I failed myself and my family and all of you guys. I was given 6 weeks to make a beautiful render of Mr and my close fur friends but all I can draw now is a picture of me crying like the mess I am.
I'm sorry if this is so rushed. I'm less than an hour before I lose access to my laptop
~ Mocha Furvie
(I am ashamed and feel pathetic for ranting about life like this. If you'd like to contact me on Telegram or Discord it's @ Furvie. If you can't find me. Feel free to comment your name and I'll try and find you when I can)
Thank you all for loving me, loving what I do. Supporting me financially, emotionally and mentally. The Furvie you know is (FOR NOW) gone. I wish to bring him back as soon as I get my life back in check. I owe it to you all and myself that I need to be back...Furvie needs to be back. ❤️ Theres still so much I want to do and share.
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Wishing you all the best. Stay safe out there and maybe you'll twist your ankle and have to go home. I'm sure a lot of people will eagerly await your return and welcome you home once you're done out there. Again, wishing you the best cause it's not all over, it's just a pause for things here for now.
Hey bud,
As a long-time depression-haver person, myself, I know where you're coming from. Every day is a fight against not just yourself, but other people that just "don't get it".
And while it might sound cliché: I do.
Right now, it really, really sounds like you need personal time... and because of your mandatory service, you can't have that. Which is... well, bad, for sure.
You've managed to make it this far. And that speaks volume about your resilience. And that will serve you well in the coming months. As long as you grab onto something enjoyable, even if it's "just" the next meal, and you make that your next milestone to reach, you'll be fine.
At the end of the day, you haven't failed yourself. Nor have you failed us.
You're trying. And it's difficult. But you're still trying. And that's not failing: that's succeeding. Every single moment that this voice in the back of your head tells you that you're a failure, but you don't give in to it... that you keep trying... it's a victory for you.
You will win the war that nobody knows about. One day.
In the meantime, keep on winning a bit more every day. *hugs*
We'll be here when you're back from duty. :3
As a long-time depression-haver person, myself, I know where you're coming from. Every day is a fight against not just yourself, but other people that just "don't get it".
And while it might sound cliché: I do.
Right now, it really, really sounds like you need personal time... and because of your mandatory service, you can't have that. Which is... well, bad, for sure.
You've managed to make it this far. And that speaks volume about your resilience. And that will serve you well in the coming months. As long as you grab onto something enjoyable, even if it's "just" the next meal, and you make that your next milestone to reach, you'll be fine.
At the end of the day, you haven't failed yourself. Nor have you failed us.
You're trying. And it's difficult. But you're still trying. And that's not failing: that's succeeding. Every single moment that this voice in the back of your head tells you that you're a failure, but you don't give in to it... that you keep trying... it's a victory for you.
You will win the war that nobody knows about. One day.
In the meantime, keep on winning a bit more every day. *hugs*
We'll be here when you're back from duty. :3
I'm so sorry that your going through such a difficult time please consider the following there's nothing wrong getting help trust me you will feel a lot better as I had therapy for getting everything off my mind and
Support Groups: Many communities offer support groups for various issues, including mental health struggles, grief, or specific life challenges. These groups provide a sense of community and shared experience. Online forums and groups can also be valuable resources.
Online Therapy Platforms: If in-person therapy isn’t an option, there are various online platforms, such as BetterHelp or Talkspace, where they can connect with licensed therapists.
Hotlines: If they’re feeling overwhelmed or in crisis, they can contact a crisis hotline. In the U.S., the National Suicide Prevention (1-800-273-TALK) offers free and confidential support 24/7. Many countries have similar services.
Community Resources: Check if there are local organizations that provide mental health services, counseling, or support for specific issues. Many cities have mental health clinics offering affordable care.
Self-Help Resources: Suggest books, podcasts, or online resources focused on mental health, coping strategies, and personal growth. Workbooks on cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) can also be helpful.
Mindfulness and Wellness Apps: Applications like Headspace, Calm, or Insight Timer offer guided meditations and wellness practices that can help manage stress and anxiety.
Physical Health Support: Encourage them to look into options for improving physical health, which can greatly impact mental well-being. This might include visiting a healthcare provider, nutritionist, or exercise specialist.
Peer Specialist Programs: Some communities offer peer support programs where trained individuals with lived experience provide guidance and support. This can create a sense of connection and understanding.
Journaling or Expressive Writing: Encourage them to keep a journal to process feelings and reflections. Writing can be a powerful tool for self-discovery and emotional release. I know this are very tough for you but your not the only one that can feel this way in this amazing community we are all here for Each other no matter where you are in the world to weather its to have a laugh Emotional support or if you need to vent i had depression when i left school at 16 how i felt was i felt like I wasn't good enough i didn't want to do anything my anxiety was high when i went out it i also felt angry & emotional i also felt guilty about wearing diapers but it helped me get through it as well. Remember that its absolutely vital to look after your mental health & well-being there's Nothing wrong Taking a break from FA avoid social media that can also affect mental health.
Support Groups: Many communities offer support groups for various issues, including mental health struggles, grief, or specific life challenges. These groups provide a sense of community and shared experience. Online forums and groups can also be valuable resources.
Online Therapy Platforms: If in-person therapy isn’t an option, there are various online platforms, such as BetterHelp or Talkspace, where they can connect with licensed therapists.
Hotlines: If they’re feeling overwhelmed or in crisis, they can contact a crisis hotline. In the U.S., the National Suicide Prevention (1-800-273-TALK) offers free and confidential support 24/7. Many countries have similar services.
Community Resources: Check if there are local organizations that provide mental health services, counseling, or support for specific issues. Many cities have mental health clinics offering affordable care.
Self-Help Resources: Suggest books, podcasts, or online resources focused on mental health, coping strategies, and personal growth. Workbooks on cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) can also be helpful.
Mindfulness and Wellness Apps: Applications like Headspace, Calm, or Insight Timer offer guided meditations and wellness practices that can help manage stress and anxiety.
Physical Health Support: Encourage them to look into options for improving physical health, which can greatly impact mental well-being. This might include visiting a healthcare provider, nutritionist, or exercise specialist.
Peer Specialist Programs: Some communities offer peer support programs where trained individuals with lived experience provide guidance and support. This can create a sense of connection and understanding.
Journaling or Expressive Writing: Encourage them to keep a journal to process feelings and reflections. Writing can be a powerful tool for self-discovery and emotional release. I know this are very tough for you but your not the only one that can feel this way in this amazing community we are all here for Each other no matter where you are in the world to weather its to have a laugh Emotional support or if you need to vent i had depression when i left school at 16 how i felt was i felt like I wasn't good enough i didn't want to do anything my anxiety was high when i went out it i also felt angry & emotional i also felt guilty about wearing diapers but it helped me get through it as well. Remember that its absolutely vital to look after your mental health & well-being there's Nothing wrong Taking a break from FA avoid social media that can also affect mental health.
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