precious thing... we continue as well as we can even if we feel no anchor to define ourselves with

You get it.
Not diagnosed with the spectrum, but I have a big suspicion I'm on it (with ADHD perhaps) and masking a lot, also depression and anxiety are daily issues and control me a lot too, AND I may be therian
- so I often have existencial crisis and am not sure if something I do is the REAL me or just a bad mood, a mask or something human that I do but wouldn't do if I wasn't in this human body.

This drawing is a little vent about that.

So many leads to follow. It's difficult to just exist without paying mind to them, and is certainly influenced by how you like to live. The biggest challenge is not getting in your own head.. do you have any way to clear your thoughts? Meditation, any particular subject that puts you in such a strong flow of consciousness or trance that it can shut other things out?

..ah, apologies, I shouldn't be trying to give advice, I know how annoying it is getting some from a stranger, and it doesn't help comfort much at all xvx

Well I appreciate it a lot, thank you.

Actually I can sometimes clear my mind with certain music and/or while drawing, but that doesn't work everytime.
It's not that big of a problem anyway, I just roll with my life at this point even though I feel "wrong" every second of it, but it's not like I was always depressed or something.

Anyway you aren't annoying at all, don't worry.