Bit of a vent, but sometimes [Read: All The Time] when people speak, I have to try and read between lines that I cannot seem to see. I Wish people would be direct with me, eventually, but it's so hard to tell sometimes in the moment. If you want something from me: Please just say it. I am so tired of having to put the extra effort in with communication. This doesn't go for everyone, of course. Some folks are really good with things like tone tags, emotes, etc. Or just being direct with me. But other folks will attempt to imply, imply, imply and I simply am unsure whether to assume one way or another. And when I ask, people tend to get weirded out. Increasingly so if I don't flourish my texts with "XD :D ;) OwO" and whatnot. People think that I am mad. I'm not, I promise.

So many conversations take SO much energy. The Autism and BPD dogs in me are at odds constantly on what people mean that I feel like i'm having two different conversations at a time with the same person. And on the other end.. I have no idea how I come across generally outside of "Intimidating" or "FLirty" or "Motherly" unless i've been friends with someone for a long time. Truly, a shame.

Anyway lol shout out to people who speak directly and just TELL You stuff it's so so so wonderful, I'm so serious. Please, keep being direct. I love you more than you know.