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Next up on my pen sketches I touched up in CSP from the psyche ward.
Not -quite- as profound I guess as the previous two but still just a vital for me to make. I do need him to know he's loved, I get scared he doesn't know. It's a major fear of mine because of how selflessly he loved me all these years. And I feel like our love only got stronger by the day, but I am not without flaw. I made plenty of mistakes. Of course, he did too but there was never a doubt in my mind that he didn't love me. No matter how angry he got at me. I knew. But I was very mean at times... painfully mean. Sociopathically mean. And I think about that every day. I did before he died but I was trying my best to overcome everything that gave him worry or pain or anything. I just... wasn't good at it. I often tried to leave him because I was afraid I'd never get it right and it wasn't fair to someone so full of pure love to be made to feel that way... but that probably only fueled the fire.
God I'm so pathetic.
Not -quite- as profound I guess as the previous two but still just a vital for me to make. I do need him to know he's loved, I get scared he doesn't know. It's a major fear of mine because of how selflessly he loved me all these years. And I feel like our love only got stronger by the day, but I am not without flaw. I made plenty of mistakes. Of course, he did too but there was never a doubt in my mind that he didn't love me. No matter how angry he got at me. I knew. But I was very mean at times... painfully mean. Sociopathically mean. And I think about that every day. I did before he died but I was trying my best to overcome everything that gave him worry or pain or anything. I just... wasn't good at it. I often tried to leave him because I was afraid I'd never get it right and it wasn't fair to someone so full of pure love to be made to feel that way... but that probably only fueled the fire.
God I'm so pathetic.
Category Artwork (Digital) / Miscellaneous
Species Rabbit / Hare
Size 2069 x 1781px
File Size 265.6 kB
I mean, he wouldn't be planning his entire life around our relationship if he didn't know I loved him too, 20 years out. When I think about it like that, my fears feel silly. I have them because I'm mentally ill and because of that illness, I have lashed out frequently. But I know he understood me because of how he handled me.
I always screamed with my medium. It's funny... I love music because it's so foreign to me how someone can turn their pain into something so raw, relatable and beautiful... but I guess for them, they're just doing what makes sense to them. I hope I'm like they are.
Every relationship has it's not so good moments. Your's with Flickie wasn't an exception and most importantly you two stayed together, even if you did get angry at each other sometimes. I think that tells enough that you two loved each other, despite all those setbacks you two experienced together.
Eh, hindsight is always 20/20.
He saw something worth staying for. I wanted so bad to see myself the way he does because maybe it would hurt less. Because I know he had the most accurate version of me. He understood me so well.
I miss feeling him in all the ways, and maybe having that removed feels like a punishment so I'm searching for a crime.
He saw something worth staying for. I wanted so bad to see myself the way he does because maybe it would hurt less. Because I know he had the most accurate version of me. He understood me so well.
I miss feeling him in all the ways, and maybe having that removed feels like a punishment so I'm searching for a crime.
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