Just a quick song, trying to get my confidence back

LYRICS:

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Open up my mind its a mystery box
I won't be fine, its a lie, no, I'm fallin apart
I always try, all the time to be somethin I'm not
I hate myself, I'm in hell, while I try not to rot

Make it through every day, even though its never easy
Constantly in pain in my brain, what's the meaning?
Living in the rain without an umbrella,
Water in my shoes, I'm a pathetic fella..

Make it through all the dark thoughts flowin in my mind
Try to see the sunshine, hopin that I'll be fine,
Try to overcome all the self doubt, always down...
Feelin like I'm gonna drown and there's not even a lifeguard around.

Its a mystery box
I won't be fine, its a lie, no, I'm fallin apart
I always try, all the time to be somethin i'm not
I hate myself, I'm in hell, while I try not to rot