imma make a post abt the character someday later

so umm in the beginning of november i got into this relationship with her
it was pretty spontaneous and without much clout, we just... decided to kinda become "a thing" bc we had similar tastes n stuff
tbh we didn't know each other that much beforehand, but we didn't have many fights either, or more like didn't get to have them
this was my first romantic relationship after i turned 18 and started to get myself together mentally, so basically my first somewhat proper romantic relationship
she was pretty cool yk, kinda cute too
we have shown each other photos of us, iykwim, we had a lot of convos that i feel i could only have with a partner, but in december she started disappearing? not answering for days, then weeks
i was genuinely worried about her and texted her multiple times, trying to comfort her so we can have a talk, but she didn't answer while dropping occasional messages on a discord server we both were on, and even answering mine there, disappearing again when i asked her to check her dms
and after a month of basically zero communication i told her that for me keeping things up like this is impossible, since she doesn't even seem to want to explain what's wrong and why she didn't answer my dm's
and then she finally answering, telling me that she's in a horrible physical state
i wanted to negotiate her about basically ghosting, but decided not to, since i didn't want her to get even more stressed than she already might be
we only dated for a month and my worry might seem ridiculous, but up to this point i just didn't get to feel any sort of connection with anyone, to the point of thinking that i'm incapable of love in general (that's another story lol)

sorry for the "trauma" dump, it keeps bugging me a bit since we parted our ways
i actually just texted her to talk and bring more clarity into the situation