This year was a bit of a rocky one for me. I had my highs and lows with others and with myself.
As far as my social ups and downs, I eventually made a decision here and there to cut ties with a number
of people for many reasons. It's either for their benefit and/or mine. Whether it's
being called too annoying without any sign given. My personality vibe is not to their liking anymore.
Give me nothing but sarcasm even in the most serious of tones. Friends that have gotten better with a reputation in their work and craft to the point where they have manager mouth pieces speak for them. (you literally can't even say hi and ask them how they are doing without consulting their manager)
Having a disagreement and eventually they stop responding when you try to make amends.
The list can go on. Perhaps I'm dwelling on it too much and all of it is in my head. Perhaps times change for all of us. I know you can't have access to friendship like a button on a keyboard. Still the idea of you wondering if you did too much or not enough for a balance. The best way for me to move on is just cutting the ties from those that I feel are eating away at me inside. Whether they realize it or not, it's none of my concern. They don't need me, and I don't need them. Better to start anew. I only wish things could have gone better...