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TL;DR - just vent art i guess...
I can't even define what's on my mind. It's very loud in there and everything is screaming. I feel totally overwhelmed by everything. I don't know how to find myself in everything, things have started to come together in my life and I don't know how I should behave, I don't know how to behave properly and enjoy it. Everywhere I see the mistakes I'm making, everywhere everything I'm screwing up something. I only hurt the people around me. I don't know what is the truth anymore. I hear from a very important person that I am making a victim of myself, when I said how I feel I think I got a different response than I expected. Depression is consuming me. I know which are the invasive thoughts, I know I'm not supposed to indulge them because it's not true, but every argument I have with my partner pushes me into everything I hear in my head from "depression." Even though he may say it's not true and it's just thoughts I still have the feeling that everything I hear is true. I know that I am a wreck and a failure at being a "human being", I know that I can't function normally, I know that I am constantly tired and can't undertake basic activities, I can't show my feelings... I wish I could just lie down and not have to get up for the foreseeable future, but I know that's wrong, because it won't help, so I get up every day and try to survive, I try to improve over myself, over my thoughts, I try to become "better", but I don't even know what that means.
I can't even define what's on my mind. It's very loud in there and everything is screaming. I feel totally overwhelmed by everything. I don't know how to find myself in everything, things have started to come together in my life and I don't know how I should behave, I don't know how to behave properly and enjoy it. Everywhere I see the mistakes I'm making, everywhere everything I'm screwing up something. I only hurt the people around me. I don't know what is the truth anymore. I hear from a very important person that I am making a victim of myself, when I said how I feel I think I got a different response than I expected. Depression is consuming me. I know which are the invasive thoughts, I know I'm not supposed to indulge them because it's not true, but every argument I have with my partner pushes me into everything I hear in my head from "depression." Even though he may say it's not true and it's just thoughts I still have the feeling that everything I hear is true. I know that I am a wreck and a failure at being a "human being", I know that I can't function normally, I know that I am constantly tired and can't undertake basic activities, I can't show my feelings... I wish I could just lie down and not have to get up for the foreseeable future, but I know that's wrong, because it won't help, so I get up every day and try to survive, I try to improve over myself, over my thoughts, I try to become "better", but I don't even know what that means.
Category Artwork (Digital) / Animal related (non-anthro)
Species Dinosaur
Size 1925 x 1915px
File Size 2.43 MB
Thank you, I really appreciate it. I'm a little afraid that I'm unnecessarily spoiling the mood for people who read such things. I fight it every day and try not to give up and get back on my feet, I enjoy the small things and very simple things that I manage to do. I try somehow to fight depression with the fact that it is a disease, so it can be cured and it has no control over me, but sometimes it is difficult actually...
Trochę o to trudno. Sama od siebie tego wymagam. Nie umiem ostatnio normalnie poskładać myśli i sprawić, by to wszystko funkcjonowało normalnie. Pewnie sobie wmawiam większość rzeczy, która jest prosta do zrobienia, ale nie mam sił na nic. Ale dziękuję za słowa otuchy! ♥
Dammit I accidentally ally his my comment but I said
I’m suffering from 99% of what you said besides having a partner and I really wish I could give you a big hug
But all I can do now is wish you the best of luck and for you to know that you are beautiful and loved and people care about you and you are doing a good job and things do get better and to keep pushing through
I don’t know if you are religious or not but I am I believe in god so even if you do or don’t believe in god
May god bless you
I’m suffering from 99% of what you said besides having a partner and I really wish I could give you a big hug
But all I can do now is wish you the best of luck and for you to know that you are beautiful and loved and people care about you and you are doing a good job and things do get better and to keep pushing through
I don’t know if you are religious or not but I am I believe in god so even if you do or don’t believe in god
May god bless you
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