Our spiritual awakening is the transcendence of our upbringing as separate identities and the personalities which we have created because of it. We had to lose our authenticity because of our upbringing and because we have lost our authenticity, we have created a world in which we feel separate and which we use for our own benefit, because our feeling of being separate makes us feel like there is something lacking. When there are moments, when our inauthentic personalities are absent, we can feel one with our true nature because we are on the true path, the path of enlightenment. It's a conversion from disobediance (following society) to obediance (following nature).