A better first-look on FA into Zen's character. I think most of my Zen stuff won't make it to this site/account unless it involves Kincorax or some silly shenanigans, since Zen is a bit like Sabba, in that they deeply traverse the realms of serious meaning and light-hearted fun and kinks in equal parts when it comes to...fueling my soul. But I wanted to have a more coherent look at Zen's body shape here, also because I'm pretty proud of them!

I'd designed Zen back in 2017/2018, when I'd designed dozens of characters simply to construct and flesh out the world of my personal, creative engine, my tooniverse. Zen was one of the few characters that fell into the background as my soul and interests twisted their way into a state of imbalance, where light-hearted fun and kinks and meaning were being improperly interwoven and skewing the direction of growth towards a state of total perversion. But since that growth has been redirected and is on the mend, Zen, along with Kincorax and Sabba and Rezni, have all emphatically pronounced their existence in my soul and kind of....dominate it now. And I want to share more of them here, even if I won't share all of them here. All of this is to say, Zen means alot to me.

Zen has been re-instantiated as an avatar of my facets, serving as a vessel to express my personal experience with being autistic, and how I feel that experience has shaped parts of the ways I view the world; especially when it comes to how deeply nihilistic mindsets scrape the surface and dig into the tectonic plates of my mind. My digitized existence, combined with my autism have ultimately produced an unusual, conceptual relationship with physical reality and gender. Zen truly believes mind over matter, to the disdain of physical reality, through practice of shunting pieces, or all of their soul into a digitized realm.

Throughout my time as an artist I've always had characters in my own creative worlds who always seemed to represent some strange relationship with physical sex, sexuality, sexual expression, and gender identity. The most prominently known character of mine to exemplify this I think would be Kairune, a cat born from my experience as a transvestite/cross-dressing back in high school. And Zen is further an expression of that feeling of mind, or rather soul, over substance.

I also deeply believe that my experience/relationship with physical reality across my time as a furry toon kink artist, in conjunction with my experience of being autistic(among other things more classically akin to mental illness) are majorly significant factors in my perverse, kinky nature. Concepts and ideas speak to something in me more than physical reality does sometimes, and Zen embodies that feeling perfectly for me. I like to describe it as: Nihilism meets Hedonism, and then eats it whole. If anyone else has had an experience of being nihilistic and becoming hedonistic as a result, I'd love to hear about it, because for me, that is one way I would describe parts of my experience being a net denizen. But I bring this perverse, kinky business up because...There's going to be alot of Kincorax and Zen coming in the future. They have best friended.

If you read all of this, damn, thank you. I just wanted to articulate my thoughts and clarify/expand them around Zen.

But what problems could Zen be speaking about?


Enjoy.