That's beautiful. Will the sea ever calm down, or hopefully shift even to a steady and stable ground that provides a delight to my senses upon stepping down on it, a rediscovered joy that I yerned for? Or is it just naivety, a foolish delusion meant to make me cope along all this miasmatic sadness that eats me away? I hope not, and I hope you will find some peace that I wish you, and me as well due to this pesky selfishness.

You're much better at this. Thank you for sharing all this stuff, always very pleasant to read.