im obsessed with her and want to share her and what i think of her
mechanical pencil on lined paper

she, to me, is a feline woman who existed a long time ago.. over 60 years perhaps. she's not with us anymore. if she were in our time she'd probably get diagnosed with a good handful of Brain Things. but here we see her in her prime, she is happy and full of unbridled joy. she doesn't care if people find her offputting. i crafted her to be this way and she is joyful not in spite of it but perhaps due in part by.
i think this is a photo that would be displayed at her funeral. or perhaps inside an elaborate but mass produced picture frame, sitting on a mantle. she is fondly remembered. everyone who had the pleasure of meeting her misses her greatly, no matter how transient their meeting.
i would say if she existed today she would be diagnosed with schizophrenia. perhaps she could have recieved better help in our time. but for when she was, she didn't have it all too bad, and she was dearly loved. and i love her too

i kind of get why stuffy portrait artists get so obsessed with their work LOL