Pull up a seat and get comfy, this is going to be story time with your local, old, wrinkling Greeny.
This has been an idea I've had in my head for awhile now and have been searching for the right artist whom I believe could do it well. Its something more on a serious tone and I knew
was someone who could do it right.
Where to begin. I joined the fandom back before even FA existed somewhere back in 1999. Even back then I stumbled across an artist known as
athus somewhere on the internet. He quickly became someone that illustrated dragons in a manor I was quite fond of and was always happy to see him upload something new. At some point, I joined what was called a "Yahoo Group" run by Kaa Starhunter a neat traditional artist raptor, and the group's name was Anthrosaur I believe. Well, that's what
Kaa used to be called and later he changed his name to Kaa bakensobek an Egyptian crocodile but yet changed yet again to a Carno(as of now). Kaa was another favorite artist of mine which is why I joined his Yahoo Group Anthrosaur. And there is when I met Athus. I had two artists that I enjoyed uploading in the same location. I had some very minor interactions with both these artists and generally enjoyed being in this group.
Some time passed, maybe a few years, and this budding new furry website started up called Furaffinity. I joined and followed Athus to this website. Around this time I was more of an observer and was less involved in the fandom. I always enjoyed what Athus created, he seemed like a nice person. His journals were always pleasant to read and overall simply seemed great to be around. He always seemed very friendly, and he even shared the same interest in video games that I enjoyed. Didn't cause any trouble and the group he was involved in seemed to all really enjoy themselves. If you go back and check his journals you can see how excited he was for Skyrim. Heh. Funny how even today The Elder Scrolls hasn't passed beyond Skyrim. x)
Then one day he shared this with everyone and all his followers: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bAQ56_dfOfY (whew, got 3 seconds into the piano intro and I'm tearing up) Its a BEAUTIFUL animation. Something really neat to watch. No words are spoken and only emotion is shown in this video. Its really wonderful, thought provoking with a marvelous piano medley.
3 days later tragedy happened. Word got out that Athus was killed in a car accident. I was honestly surprised how disheartened I was hearing the news. I wasn't one of his close friends and only barely spoke a few comments here and there but I was still saddened by the news. I was merely an onlooker but still was greatly affected by the news. Sadness, disappointment, and utterly defeated was how I felt. You can go visit his last journal and see the great out pouring that happened. First list of comments are people amazed by the animation and then later you can see where the news got out and others sharing their sadness. I also recall seeing BD flooding his shout page with hearts. I always wondered if this was Narse or Varka showing their grief of the situation.
This image is my remembrance to him. My way of showing that I won't forget. I thought it would be fitting that I'd be in the scene of the Butterfly Dragon. To be an aspect of the last thing he shared. I feel like Athus was important. He was in essence a great grandfather to the scalie side of the fandom. He was the early pillar that helped to bring us to where we are today. Helped to pave the way forward as the Fandom was still very new and developing.
So! Its now my turn to share this animation. Its really neat! Its all about interpretation and deciding what is actually occurring. Watch the Butterfly dragon and tell me what you see. I'll go first. I see hope. To always chase after your dreams no matter how far away they might seem, and that imagination is a wonderful, beautiful thing that will let us fly. To always be yourself and maybe one day, you'll leave an impression on those around you. ^_^
This has been an idea I've had in my head for awhile now and have been searching for the right artist whom I believe could do it well. Its something more on a serious tone and I knew
was someone who could do it right. Where to begin. I joined the fandom back before even FA existed somewhere back in 1999. Even back then I stumbled across an artist known as
athus somewhere on the internet. He quickly became someone that illustrated dragons in a manor I was quite fond of and was always happy to see him upload something new. At some point, I joined what was called a "Yahoo Group" run by Kaa Starhunter a neat traditional artist raptor, and the group's name was Anthrosaur I believe. Well, that's what
Kaa used to be called and later he changed his name to Kaa bakensobek an Egyptian crocodile but yet changed yet again to a Carno(as of now). Kaa was another favorite artist of mine which is why I joined his Yahoo Group Anthrosaur. And there is when I met Athus. I had two artists that I enjoyed uploading in the same location. I had some very minor interactions with both these artists and generally enjoyed being in this group.Some time passed, maybe a few years, and this budding new furry website started up called Furaffinity. I joined and followed Athus to this website. Around this time I was more of an observer and was less involved in the fandom. I always enjoyed what Athus created, he seemed like a nice person. His journals were always pleasant to read and overall simply seemed great to be around. He always seemed very friendly, and he even shared the same interest in video games that I enjoyed. Didn't cause any trouble and the group he was involved in seemed to all really enjoy themselves. If you go back and check his journals you can see how excited he was for Skyrim. Heh. Funny how even today The Elder Scrolls hasn't passed beyond Skyrim. x)
Then one day he shared this with everyone and all his followers: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bAQ56_dfOfY (whew, got 3 seconds into the piano intro and I'm tearing up) Its a BEAUTIFUL animation. Something really neat to watch. No words are spoken and only emotion is shown in this video. Its really wonderful, thought provoking with a marvelous piano medley.
3 days later tragedy happened. Word got out that Athus was killed in a car accident. I was honestly surprised how disheartened I was hearing the news. I wasn't one of his close friends and only barely spoke a few comments here and there but I was still saddened by the news. I was merely an onlooker but still was greatly affected by the news. Sadness, disappointment, and utterly defeated was how I felt. You can go visit his last journal and see the great out pouring that happened. First list of comments are people amazed by the animation and then later you can see where the news got out and others sharing their sadness. I also recall seeing BD flooding his shout page with hearts. I always wondered if this was Narse or Varka showing their grief of the situation.
This image is my remembrance to him. My way of showing that I won't forget. I thought it would be fitting that I'd be in the scene of the Butterfly Dragon. To be an aspect of the last thing he shared. I feel like Athus was important. He was in essence a great grandfather to the scalie side of the fandom. He was the early pillar that helped to bring us to where we are today. Helped to pave the way forward as the Fandom was still very new and developing.
So! Its now my turn to share this animation. Its really neat! Its all about interpretation and deciding what is actually occurring. Watch the Butterfly dragon and tell me what you see. I'll go first. I see hope. To always chase after your dreams no matter how far away they might seem, and that imagination is a wonderful, beautiful thing that will let us fly. To always be yourself and maybe one day, you'll leave an impression on those around you. ^_^
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Oh dear...
that is an unexpected one...
It was years ago when my life was in one of the darkest spots yet that I came across this animation via Athus' account... It was surreal and beautiful then and still so touching...
It gave me hope in a way.
Neat to see that others had meaningful moments with it, too.
that is an unexpected one...
It was years ago when my life was in one of the darkest spots yet that I came across this animation via Athus' account... It was surreal and beautiful then and still so touching...
It gave me hope in a way.
Neat to see that others had meaningful moments with it, too.
Yes, I know of this story. I never knew Athus, and only ever saw his art long after he was gone. It affected me just to see peoples comments about how much of a good friend he was and how much they miss him. I actually never have been able to watch that animation because the backstory of how I found out about it is too sad for me.
I came to the fandom very young. I was a big fan of Narse's work and the things Athus often said were deeply inspiring. I remember when this was shared.. i was about 14, i dont think ive watched it again since.. until today.
This is what Art is about, and why im soo invested in this community, even though i dont talk too much xD
Thanks for this Hondra. I really needed to see and read this today ;;
I keep losing hope in alot of things, more and more. But every now and then someone awesome lights up my sky~
Cheers <3
This is what Art is about, and why im soo invested in this community, even though i dont talk too much xD
Thanks for this Hondra. I really needed to see and read this today ;;
I keep losing hope in alot of things, more and more. But every now and then someone awesome lights up my sky~
Cheers <3
I never knew Athus, he passed away long before I joined the fandom. He was part of a Scalie generation before mine, but I've heard stories of what a nice person he was, and how tragic his passing was to those who knew him and the fandom at large. I wish I could've known him. I guess I just showed up late to the party. So much happened before my time, I almost feel as if I somehow missed opprtunities to meet people and see good things. I'm just grateful to see his legacy lives on.
It will always pain me seeing the loss of Athus, I'd love to see what he'd be doing. His death always reminds me of one from A dearly beloved family friend of mine.
Same year, same way, only a month apart.
Thank you for sharing it's always good to use the past for help in the present.
Same year, same way, only a month apart.
Thank you for sharing it's always good to use the past for help in the present.
It does make you wonder what he would be doing if he was still around. If his art style would have changed. Or if he focused more on other species. Always makes you wonder. Heck, he could have started becoming a big time streamer. Always fun to wonder and fantasize what could have been.
From reading Athus' 2005 journals when he still used a personal site, to the exponential growth of his art, and right up up to Narse's 2-year disappearance after the tragedy. As well as beyond. I remembering following things from the sidelines, I remember shenanigans, and most of all I remember being authentic and unapologetic in one's own identity and expression, at a time when the organized forces that would attack and spoil Otherkin or Furries weren't yet there. And even when they did begin, they left his persona mostly alone.
For the time he was around, Athus afforded to be himself, unbound and often criticizing of the artificial mores this world forces upon and takes for granted, for their limitations - which many of us feel - and showed the world a much more free expression of Love, Self-Expression, Family, Honor, and more. One which in the end, the community at large either could not follow or had to ultimately submit to due to external outrage. Though, it wasn't all a loss. The community fronted and continues to front LGBT causes and it may ultimately just be due to a few more cycles of this, from other living examples, to assimilate more causes.
Many things went wrong after his death. I've seen drama and paradigm shifts in the communities that enforced conformity, toxic callouts, and forced even the Otherkin community self-censor in ways that satisfied the masses. The force has been great and continues to do policing today. It broke my heart to see site shutdowns and changes of narrative in even those I knew didn't stand for what they had begun to parrot. Some left, even wiping the web archives of their past. Sometimes for their safety.
I still watch the people I admired and the groups I was never a part of. Today most of that glory has been taken into the private, for reasons already mentioned. I wonder, had he lived to this day, how he would have taken all of this. Early to mid-2000s I think were the years when the most people were vocal about the changes needed to social norms that drew inspiration from this otherworldliness, from aspirations, dreams, and visions. I fear sometimes he might have been a target of the nastiness that later followed. That maybe he would have had to withdraw and chalk up the silence to being busy with work at the company.
He got it right. People just didn't listen. Or they did but then the world around them made that a liability. Or they were just screwed over by life. I found his vision and depictions to be exactly right. He pointed out exactly what was wrong with this world and its people. Exactly what form of engagement that would free its people from their own toxic self-imposed limitations. He lived it. He was it.
I never spoke to him.
There was one point, one year before disaster that the thought crossed my mind. The clouds were already gathering and I didn't like it. But it wasn't much beyond a mere thought. And then the combination of changing times and his death took with them an important conversation out of the communities he was a part of. Things that drew me to these online social circles to begin with. I know a number of things I can no longer discuss, and it is a silent anger.
I sit around with a modest collection of art pieces, saved postings of all sorts and even YouTube videos that have since vanished, and I just wish there had been more. On the artistic side I know he would have started doing animation. At the least, he got to live the dream, in one of its most maximalist expressions, just before so many things started to come down.
For the time he was around, Athus afforded to be himself, unbound and often criticizing of the artificial mores this world forces upon and takes for granted, for their limitations - which many of us feel - and showed the world a much more free expression of Love, Self-Expression, Family, Honor, and more. One which in the end, the community at large either could not follow or had to ultimately submit to due to external outrage. Though, it wasn't all a loss. The community fronted and continues to front LGBT causes and it may ultimately just be due to a few more cycles of this, from other living examples, to assimilate more causes.
Many things went wrong after his death. I've seen drama and paradigm shifts in the communities that enforced conformity, toxic callouts, and forced even the Otherkin community self-censor in ways that satisfied the masses. The force has been great and continues to do policing today. It broke my heart to see site shutdowns and changes of narrative in even those I knew didn't stand for what they had begun to parrot. Some left, even wiping the web archives of their past. Sometimes for their safety.
I still watch the people I admired and the groups I was never a part of. Today most of that glory has been taken into the private, for reasons already mentioned. I wonder, had he lived to this day, how he would have taken all of this. Early to mid-2000s I think were the years when the most people were vocal about the changes needed to social norms that drew inspiration from this otherworldliness, from aspirations, dreams, and visions. I fear sometimes he might have been a target of the nastiness that later followed. That maybe he would have had to withdraw and chalk up the silence to being busy with work at the company.
He got it right. People just didn't listen. Or they did but then the world around them made that a liability. Or they were just screwed over by life. I found his vision and depictions to be exactly right. He pointed out exactly what was wrong with this world and its people. Exactly what form of engagement that would free its people from their own toxic self-imposed limitations. He lived it. He was it.
I never spoke to him.
There was one point, one year before disaster that the thought crossed my mind. The clouds were already gathering and I didn't like it. But it wasn't much beyond a mere thought. And then the combination of changing times and his death took with them an important conversation out of the communities he was a part of. Things that drew me to these online social circles to begin with. I know a number of things I can no longer discuss, and it is a silent anger.
I sit around with a modest collection of art pieces, saved postings of all sorts and even YouTube videos that have since vanished, and I just wish there had been more. On the artistic side I know he would have started doing animation. At the least, he got to live the dream, in one of its most maximalist expressions, just before so many things started to come down.
Hondra my God, I remember when I first saw that short film!! Even though I haven't signed into Furaffinity until a few months ago, I veagly remember like Athus art!! Less then a month after he passed, my Grandma passed away from heart issues peacefully in her sleep. We were VERY CLOSE. I miss her so much,😢 but I know she would want me to keep going. 😪 THANK YOU FOR CREATING SUCH A WONDERFUL ART!! :3
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