It's a sublingual tablet they started me on this Month. Went to the psyche ward and I made this sketch there on paper, then I colored/lined it in CSP on my Surface.

It was a necessary evil to go to the psyche ward. Not much to unpack really... I have bpd, Bipolar I and "schizophrenic symptoms" which means the psyche ward docs didn't have enough information to diagnose me with it, but saw it's potential. Since I was diagnosed through my regular doc with schizophrenia plus my mom, her dad and my brother have it... yeah. I know it's there. Either way, Saphris is meant to treat bipolar I, II and Schizophrenia. Gives me rls though, but Requip would fix that in a jiffy.

But anyway, I lost my shit Monday night, walked 45 minutes to the ER somehow and checked myself in. Guess I said the magic self-threat while there, cuz they kept me for 72 hours once the 11 hour hold in the ER was done. I guess that's how long it took to place me in psyche.

I actually made the most of my visit, attending all the group therapies and stuff. Cried a lil cuz of who I am emotionally. I was part of the cool kids' clique though, which I always manage to do in psyche wards. They were all awesome people though; staff and patients alike. For what it was, I enjoyed being there and learned a lot about myself. Most importantly, I got my meds adjusted properly. Hopefully. Saphris was working pretty well but I won't know how well for another few weeks yet. I gotta talk to my personal psyche doc in 2 weeks and ask her a little more about it. But I'm thinking it might be time to switch organizations... the hospital I went to has a great psychiatrics department and since they have my records of being in the ER/psychiatric hold now, idk. I like their diagnosis of me the best too. However, idk if I'll be allowed to continue Ritalin/stimulants. The psyche ward doc wasn't trained in adhd treatment, but he did know that stimulants can trigger my other illnesses. Even on things like Saphris. So idk. All my docs have mixed feelings on me taking stimulants... but I can't focus without them. Maybe I should try Strattera... But if it means keeping my personality in check, I guess I could be comfortable forgoing the stimulant. I just want to TRY life with it a little longer right now. When I initially decided to take up this uphill battle of psyche treatment 11 years ago, I didn't care about treating my adhd symptoms. I thought surely, being forgetful and cloudly is the least of my problems. But as I explored, I learned it was more than that. But maybe I've come full circle... idk. Things to discuss in a few weeks...