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i took time to do something personnal today.
Ok. I prefer to say it, I don't know how to formulate this, if it's the right words, or the right way. But as much to say it, story that it comes out and that people are aware and are not surprised if it happens.
I'll try to keep it short, so as not to get bogged down in unnecessary details. and people don't like long blocks of text anyway.
In short version, with the image you have a small idea of what is happening or what has happened in my head and in my life.
I'm seriously considering quitting being a freelance artist and taking on more "classic" work. No decision has been made at the moment, but I'm thinking about it, my decision will come in the next few weeks.
that's it if you want the short version, if you want a little more detail, then let's continue.
I have been a freelance artist for over two years now. And 2022 has been an emotional rollercoaster. I cried, I screamed, I got angry, I got depressed. I neglected my health...
It is with shame that I admit to having been bad with those around me who had to suffer my mood swings.
Emotionally and mentally, I'm tired.
I reassure you right away, it's okay. I'm fine and I'm not alone.
I live with 3 friends, I am supported by my loved ones, I have spoken a lot with them and everything is not THAT bad.
I have good times, I am lucky to have support and to be well surrounded.
I thank all those who offered me and who will still offer me that they are there to discuss if I need it.
Don't take it for yourself if i don't, but it's just not really me, I'm very modest/shy about that.
There are mainly 3 things that make me not doing so well.
- Stress and mental load. Working as a freelancer means managing everything from A to Z. Customer relations, the drawing work itself, all the administration, being disciplined, accounting, and cash flow, which is my second point. .
- Money. As you know, times are tough for everyone right now. Prices are rising everywhere. you need to have a substantial income to be able to pay your bills and live. And as a freelancer, the salary is unstable and never guaranteed. and today, I do not earn enough to live comfortably.
The constant stress/fear of not having enough to pay bills, payroll taxes and debts is horrible to bear, especially if you have been doing it for a very long time, without being able to take a vacation or rest. It ruins your health, which is the third point.
- Health. Indeed for too long I have neglected my health. I was in denial and always postponing it, telling myself that when the situation is calmer, I will take care of it. that for now I'm fine. That I MUST be fine.
Well no, it doesn't work. My mind reminds me of it, my age, my body, my loved ones remind me of it.
So I decided to see doctors. for the weight, for my back problems, for my mind. this is all in process for now.
Some fellow artists know what I'm talking about, some people will understand, some probably won't. but at least I give an explanation. just in case.
I repeat, but no decision has been made yet. I try to get better, to change my way of working, to take care of myself... and in general, I make an effort to be better.
My current clients need not worry. I will continue to work, and I will never take an commission that I am not sure to finish.
Thanks to everyone who supports me. Thank you to my relatives and loved ones, my friends, buddies, acquaintances and others.
Thanks to my customers, to the donations, to all the messages of support, in the past or to come.
Whether I quit or not, it was really a great experience.
As a modest artist, I am particularly happy that my drawings have brought pleasure and satisfaction to people around me.
see you around for more artwork, hopefully.
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Ok. I prefer to say it, I don't know how to formulate this, if it's the right words, or the right way. But as much to say it, story that it comes out and that people are aware and are not surprised if it happens.
I'll try to keep it short, so as not to get bogged down in unnecessary details. and people don't like long blocks of text anyway.
In short version, with the image you have a small idea of what is happening or what has happened in my head and in my life.
I'm seriously considering quitting being a freelance artist and taking on more "classic" work. No decision has been made at the moment, but I'm thinking about it, my decision will come in the next few weeks.
that's it if you want the short version, if you want a little more detail, then let's continue.
I have been a freelance artist for over two years now. And 2022 has been an emotional rollercoaster. I cried, I screamed, I got angry, I got depressed. I neglected my health...
It is with shame that I admit to having been bad with those around me who had to suffer my mood swings.
Emotionally and mentally, I'm tired.
I reassure you right away, it's okay. I'm fine and I'm not alone.
I live with 3 friends, I am supported by my loved ones, I have spoken a lot with them and everything is not THAT bad.
I have good times, I am lucky to have support and to be well surrounded.
I thank all those who offered me and who will still offer me that they are there to discuss if I need it.
Don't take it for yourself if i don't, but it's just not really me, I'm very modest/shy about that.
There are mainly 3 things that make me not doing so well.
- Stress and mental load. Working as a freelancer means managing everything from A to Z. Customer relations, the drawing work itself, all the administration, being disciplined, accounting, and cash flow, which is my second point. .
- Money. As you know, times are tough for everyone right now. Prices are rising everywhere. you need to have a substantial income to be able to pay your bills and live. And as a freelancer, the salary is unstable and never guaranteed. and today, I do not earn enough to live comfortably.
The constant stress/fear of not having enough to pay bills, payroll taxes and debts is horrible to bear, especially if you have been doing it for a very long time, without being able to take a vacation or rest. It ruins your health, which is the third point.
- Health. Indeed for too long I have neglected my health. I was in denial and always postponing it, telling myself that when the situation is calmer, I will take care of it. that for now I'm fine. That I MUST be fine.
Well no, it doesn't work. My mind reminds me of it, my age, my body, my loved ones remind me of it.
So I decided to see doctors. for the weight, for my back problems, for my mind. this is all in process for now.
Some fellow artists know what I'm talking about, some people will understand, some probably won't. but at least I give an explanation. just in case.
I repeat, but no decision has been made yet. I try to get better, to change my way of working, to take care of myself... and in general, I make an effort to be better.
My current clients need not worry. I will continue to work, and I will never take an commission that I am not sure to finish.
Thanks to everyone who supports me. Thank you to my relatives and loved ones, my friends, buddies, acquaintances and others.
Thanks to my customers, to the donations, to all the messages of support, in the past or to come.
Whether I quit or not, it was really a great experience.
As a modest artist, I am particularly happy that my drawings have brought pleasure and satisfaction to people around me.
see you around for more artwork, hopefully.
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well if thats your course of choice, with luck youll find a good job that hits your financial needs, isnt miserable for you and even gives you time to leisure draw. can even once in a while open up for odd ball slots but not sit there feeling like you have to because of finances. No matter your course i wish you luck.
A stable income is very helpful in reducing stress in some ways but there is something to be said about being your own boss as well. Either way, do what works best for you, there is no value in hurting your health trying to maintain an unmanageable lifestyle. And its not like it has to be permanent, you can try it and if you find it to be less fulfilling or whatnot, you could always go back. Or do half and half; part time stable, part time freelance or something.
I do love seeing your artwork, it is of amazing quality and emotion but I'd rather you be happy than force yourself through a grinder =3
I do love seeing your artwork, it is of amazing quality and emotion but I'd rather you be happy than force yourself through a grinder =3
Getting freelance art to make sense economically is far from a trivial task. Personally I would say you have the artistic skill to make it work. The art you make is honestly wonderful and you have been on my bucket list for quite some time.
Though, my own economy has had its own priorities as of late, art has been quite low on my list in general. But joining your Patreon is at least a token of gratitude I can afford to provide you for the art you bring to the community.
From here on I can only hope that the future will turn out for the better. Despite all my own sleepless nights overthinking about the many issues that has been plaguing this world we live in.
Though, my own economy has had its own priorities as of late, art has been quite low on my list in general. But joining your Patreon is at least a token of gratitude I can afford to provide you for the art you bring to the community.
From here on I can only hope that the future will turn out for the better. Despite all my own sleepless nights overthinking about the many issues that has been plaguing this world we live in.
life and world are definitely not easy on us, in many ways and for many reason, sometime in a really unfair way. We are a lot to struggle and try to find our places and ways.
definitely not easy
anyway, Tank you for your comment and for the feelings, and the support on Patreon. be sure it is already a lot and it is appreciated.
of course, take care about yourself too! and as you said , let's hope things get better.
definitely not easy
anyway, Tank you for your comment and for the feelings, and the support on Patreon. be sure it is already a lot and it is appreciated.
of course, take care about yourself too! and as you said , let's hope things get better.
you really are a fabulous person and artist. The one time i was lucky enough to work with you, you were a pleasure to work with and i adore what you made for me. I really hope you can find a better work-life balance because it would be a shame to see you go. If you want someone to talk about it with, my ear is always open. Work vs life interests is hard thing to balance, I am sure you can do it but, if it comes down to it if you have to stop do it to save your health and mental well being. And hey if you ever need help on the financial end of things, I always planned on commissioning you again ^.=.^
Thank you very much for you kind words.
As i said, I'm not the kind to really talk about his problem except in really private circle. But i thank you for the offer, i appreciate the intention ^^
And sure, whenever you will want, if we have the occasion, it will be a pleasure to work together again ^^
As i said, I'm not the kind to really talk about his problem except in really private circle. But i thank you for the offer, i appreciate the intention ^^
And sure, whenever you will want, if we have the occasion, it will be a pleasure to work together again ^^
People have always said "do what you love and you'll never work a day in your life" I tend to disagree with most of this statement, turning a hobby into a job can be a quick way to make you hate your hobby and it's important to have hobbies that you enjoy to get away from work stress so finding a new line of work (while hard) could always be a healthy step.
What you said is very true, i must agree. it was actually my worry when i was younger and people ask me if i wanted to make art as job.
well, i least i tried and i learn something in the process. so whatever it comes, it is still positive
Thank you for your message
well, i least i tried and i learn something in the process. so whatever it comes, it is still positive
Thank you for your message
In the end, I'm sure you will still draw but at your own pace when you want to and it won't be commissions. Which is still fine Nero. Maybe we won't see any new uploads for 2 months or maybe 3. But that's ok. Maybe only some quick doodles is all the time you will have. Won't HAVE to upload finished pieces.
Either way you choose, I still understand your situation and you'll still be apart of the community even if your involvement lessens.
Either way you choose, I still understand your situation and you'll still be apart of the community even if your involvement lessens.
This sounds like a really difficult decision...But, if you're confident that making a change to a more 'classic' mode of work would address those three main problems, then honestly you should probably just go for it.
(Which is unfortunate from my perspective, because you're one of my absolute top 3 favourite artists. But that's all the more reason that I want you to focus on yourself and your own happiness)
Some additional thoughts:
-If instability in income is a problem, have you considered expanding your Patreon and putting more focus on subscription-based access to your content? For example: You could have more membership tiers (and increase the membership threshold for the current bonuses they offer), offer Patreon-only content, and/or perhaps a time delay on public release of content, whilst still taking commissions exactly as you do now. You could also have 'Subscription Goals' to encourage continual growth of total subscriptions.
I, personally, would be very interested in supporting this approach. For me, individual commissions aren't very appealing, and instead I would much prefer to give an amount regularly (10 euros/month, maybe?) to help support artists I like.
-Maybe it would be an option to do part-time of 'classic' work initially, to help make the change more smooth for you?
-Your health comes first. Your income is impacting your health. So, if you can't increase your income through altering your services or a substantial increase in price, tbh you should absolutely move to traditional work ASAP.
I agree with what everyone else has said, and we're here for whatever support you need. You can always shoot me a message on FA if you want to talk on Telegram or Discord- Whether about these challenges or if you just want company/emotional support/hugs. I hope things look up for you.
(Which is unfortunate from my perspective, because you're one of my absolute top 3 favourite artists. But that's all the more reason that I want you to focus on yourself and your own happiness)
Some additional thoughts:
-If instability in income is a problem, have you considered expanding your Patreon and putting more focus on subscription-based access to your content? For example: You could have more membership tiers (and increase the membership threshold for the current bonuses they offer), offer Patreon-only content, and/or perhaps a time delay on public release of content, whilst still taking commissions exactly as you do now. You could also have 'Subscription Goals' to encourage continual growth of total subscriptions.
I, personally, would be very interested in supporting this approach. For me, individual commissions aren't very appealing, and instead I would much prefer to give an amount regularly (10 euros/month, maybe?) to help support artists I like.
-Maybe it would be an option to do part-time of 'classic' work initially, to help make the change more smooth for you?
-Your health comes first. Your income is impacting your health. So, if you can't increase your income through altering your services or a substantial increase in price, tbh you should absolutely move to traditional work ASAP.
I agree with what everyone else has said, and we're here for whatever support you need. You can always shoot me a message on FA if you want to talk on Telegram or Discord- Whether about these challenges or if you just want company/emotional support/hugs. I hope things look up for you.
Thank you for your comment, support and advices.
I indeed thinked about my patreon and how to manage it, along with other ideas.
sadly i have to admit i have definitely a lack of content to offer, along with a lack of energy and interest to diversify my activities. I'm not into being "influencer" making stream, big project with crossfounding and such.
I'm a simple person liking simple things.
I dunno, maybe i will find my thing at some point, my way to manage thing.
I a way or another, i will figurate it out, hopefully
anyway, thank you again for you time, you comment and your advice. it is appreciated ^^
I indeed thinked about my patreon and how to manage it, along with other ideas.
sadly i have to admit i have definitely a lack of content to offer, along with a lack of energy and interest to diversify my activities. I'm not into being "influencer" making stream, big project with crossfounding and such.
I'm a simple person liking simple things.
I dunno, maybe i will find my thing at some point, my way to manage thing.
I a way or another, i will figurate it out, hopefully
anyway, thank you again for you time, you comment and your advice. it is appreciated ^^
It is a difficult decision you have to make, but I'm sure you will do what is best for your wellbeing.
As long as you aren't like some artists that when starting a new chapter in their lives decide to delete all their old artwork without warning, I will respect whichever choice you ultimately end up making.
As long as you aren't like some artists that when starting a new chapter in their lives decide to delete all their old artwork without warning, I will respect whichever choice you ultimately end up making.
''whether I quit or not''
you make it sound like a very final thing but it is entirely your freedom to stop and then do it again in the future
the important thing is to take care of yourself in whatever manner you think best so focus on that and not wether you quit or continue
you can always change your mind or not later when your circumstances change or better allow for you to change your mind to something else wether it will be back to drawing or something else entirely
just remember to do whatever you think is best and i hope you will do great at whatever that end up being
you make it sound like a very final thing but it is entirely your freedom to stop and then do it again in the future
the important thing is to take care of yourself in whatever manner you think best so focus on that and not wether you quit or continue
you can always change your mind or not later when your circumstances change or better allow for you to change your mind to something else wether it will be back to drawing or something else entirely
just remember to do whatever you think is best and i hope you will do great at whatever that end up being
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