gay but in a 'shapeshifting airplanes made of light & biting eachother' way

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i swear to god everytime i draw her she stretches around like she's made of taffy. Help
i just accepted i will never finalize any oc design at this point, she can sometimes have ears big enough to glide with now that is canon. (i had to make it canon they are shapeshifters because i can never decide on any design even after 2 years. all of my ocs are slowly turning into airplanes i guess)

thought about how crazy weird my designs are and how strongly i want them to live , and that entails more months of study and careful constructing anatomy and scenes but it's worth it so worth it to have them actually just be real like in a scene you can corporeally feel their bodies and emotions. beyond just normal OC drawings 'standing/floating there' though those are good too. but that real-surreal-feeling is what i fight for everyday. (this was actually partly a bad thing because i had such an extreme focus on quality>quantity that i only finished 0.1% of my ideas)

this also is why i spent 30 days doing&refining apaika's bedroom pic way beyond what was needed and just disregarding standard composition rules, because i just wanted that to be real in every last little detail in my head even if that entailed a messier art. like if you grabbed your phone and randomly took a photo of your bedroom, it would be messy and awkward and not have any good composition but it would still be real, and if you showed it to an alien it would be a magical thing to them.

i worried if this is too real but my entire purpose of posting now is about me and not being a brand or content stream soo yea. fox plane cute (i will be crying allday but then stop to think about creatures and it triggers my "vehicle with cute face on it" dopamine circuit and i can feel okay about being autistic for at least one moment. thinking about the ppl on deviantart with like 9000 ms paint images of different airplane liveries and jealous because i need that feeling everyday tbh)

(i have to be careful im not looping i might be looping i have like 20 wip rambles and posts written down at any given time existing in this quantum timeless space where something was said or will-be-said or might-be-said or was said in the future (??))