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Depression sucks, man...
It struck SO HARD and out of nowhere Sunday. It's difficult to have a thought outside of "I should die" because of how much my hallucinations feed off my depression and PTSD when either flare up...
I'm kind of scared tbh, because all I keep hearing is how much I should end myself or the constant wishes for me not to wake up again. I KNOW they're hallucinations. I KNOW that things aren't so bad that I should just die... I'm a pretty positive person by default, but I can't lift myself up when that's all I keep hearing...
It struck SO HARD and out of nowhere Sunday. It's difficult to have a thought outside of "I should die" because of how much my hallucinations feed off my depression and PTSD when either flare up...
I'm kind of scared tbh, because all I keep hearing is how much I should end myself or the constant wishes for me not to wake up again. I KNOW they're hallucinations. I KNOW that things aren't so bad that I should just die... I'm a pretty positive person by default, but I can't lift myself up when that's all I keep hearing...
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Sorry you're having to deal with this.
Not quite the same as hallucinations, but I've suffered from intrusive thoughts for my whole life. Sometimes they really beat the hell out of you and send you into a depressive state or even make you feel monstrous.
It's totally understandable for stuff like that to bring your overall demeanor down now and again. Nothing wrong with being scared of those thoughts either. Being scared of those thoughts can actually be a bit of a good sign, a sign that you don't agree with the thoughts or want what they seem to want. Despite their persistence, you're telling them no.
For my intrusive thoughts, I had to start 'word vomit' journaling. Just opened up a journal and let the words fall out as quick as they could. No grammar or structure needed. The more I broke them down, the more I was able to see my intrusive thoughts simply as signs of different emotions, and I was able to stop pushing them down and just work through them.
I hope your brain starts cooperating with you again. Good luck and strong will to you.
Not quite the same as hallucinations, but I've suffered from intrusive thoughts for my whole life. Sometimes they really beat the hell out of you and send you into a depressive state or even make you feel monstrous.
It's totally understandable for stuff like that to bring your overall demeanor down now and again. Nothing wrong with being scared of those thoughts either. Being scared of those thoughts can actually be a bit of a good sign, a sign that you don't agree with the thoughts or want what they seem to want. Despite their persistence, you're telling them no.
For my intrusive thoughts, I had to start 'word vomit' journaling. Just opened up a journal and let the words fall out as quick as they could. No grammar or structure needed. The more I broke them down, the more I was able to see my intrusive thoughts simply as signs of different emotions, and I was able to stop pushing them down and just work through them.
I hope your brain starts cooperating with you again. Good luck and strong will to you.
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