Long ago I came up with a medieval fantasy story with all my characters set in the same universe that my angelic/demon characters also inhabit, it was gonna be an adventure story about taking a McGuffin to a place with a merry band of characters like a sword for hire, prince of a kingdom proving himself worthy, a pair of amazon sisters which one dies and gets replaced by a witch character, leading up to encountering a large woman with an enchanted hammer said to have been crafted by heavenly hands that relates to the more demonic encounters the group has later on. Despite being one of my most popular characters Silvia was gonna have a very minor role in the story, she would be the owner of an Inn that the crew stay at to then heal the wounds of one of the amazon sisters, naturally she would be the love interest to that version of Scott as well, falling in love with each other over night, with promises of returning safely to live out the rest of their lives together.

Funnily enough despite this idea being almost 10 years old this is the first time I've ever drawn Silvia from this story.

But yeah, I'm uploading this at the very least just to let people know I'm still alive, I check notifications everyday and to be honest I'm a bit stuck at the moment, personally I feel like I can't grow as an artist due to things that are outside of my control and while I don't like using that excuse it's the only way I can describe it, full time job that I can't just quit, mentally I'm exhausted from art, it just feels like work and I don't remember the last time I sat down and worked on a piece with passion for hours on end and enjoyed every minute of it. I get put down every time I hear that "now is the best time for independent comic creators" when I can't create the stories I want to create because of financial uncertainty (I can't go back to being basically broke), it's basically like investing on something with no idea of it succeeding and I'm not that kind of person to make risks like that, even with money set aside. I already took that gamble once and while I am forever grateful to those who commissioned me, commissions are not financially viable. Best case scenario is that I do part time hours at my job and continue art as a side hustle but really all that boils down do is making less money at my job and making no money doing art, plus seeing how certain trends are playing out it doesn't seem worth it to burn myself out AGAIN.

I still love art and I will never stop drawing but there's just so much i have to learn and get over and now really isn't the best of times.