"I dont know why, but I have a massive issue with self control...so the crew don't let me play with anything automatic anymore,it's pretty annoying but I get it, sometimes I think they only stick with be because I'm useful, they are clearly afraid of me at some degree...I like to be feared, I like how most people avoid looking me in the eyes while they struggle to even utter a word to me with their shaky voices...but I really miss physical contact with someone, even the twins kinda avoid me, when the cold night fells Jean and ji cuddle on eachother same for Kartola and Trashdog, meanwhile I have no one, its just me and the rags I sleep on, not gonna lie sometimes I want to cry but I hold it because it seems like a waste of precious water...I know they are afraid of my unpredictability and they are not wrong, I snap way to easily, I go from completely calm to homicidal rage at the drop of hat, I don't know why but deep down there I'm always raging, no matter how much roadside scum I kill it never ceases it just settles down for a while..sometimes I wish someone could finally best me in a fight and kill me once for all, perhaps I can find some peace in the other side..." (Danadriel)

first drawing/remake of 2023