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Life discussion (and cat) | Longread (TW in post)
Trigger warning: Depression and suicidal thoughts
I have a problem with the university, everything is according to the classics: “well, I studied good at school (though not perfectly), I passed the exam, I entered because I needed to go somewhere.” In the third year I realized that I was not satisfied with the profession.
Now I'm at the fourth, and everything has gone so much that nothing in my life suits me. I completely ruined my routine, I hardly sleep, I hardly eat (and if I eat, then this is an unhealthy high-calorie food)
Drawing is the only thing I know how to do well, but in the end it's useless, because it doesn't help me to make money.
I don’t trust anyone around and I don’t trust any courses. (after all, there are a lot of scammers now)
Relatives insist to finish the education at least somehow. (only because a diploma)
Some of them support the Russian-Ukrainian war and I feel uncomfortable being with them.
They see all foreign countries as enemies (especially USA)
I think life is meaningless. I want to commit suicide more and more
Sorry for any mistakes. English isn't my native language.
BTW: It's my cat in photo. Her name is Leia and she is my cute preciouses being (and the only one who understands me)
I have a problem with the university, everything is according to the classics: “well, I studied good at school (though not perfectly), I passed the exam, I entered because I needed to go somewhere.” In the third year I realized that I was not satisfied with the profession.
Now I'm at the fourth, and everything has gone so much that nothing in my life suits me. I completely ruined my routine, I hardly sleep, I hardly eat (and if I eat, then this is an unhealthy high-calorie food)
Drawing is the only thing I know how to do well, but in the end it's useless, because it doesn't help me to make money.
I don’t trust anyone around and I don’t trust any courses. (after all, there are a lot of scammers now)
Relatives insist to finish the education at least somehow. (only because a diploma)
Some of them support the Russian-Ukrainian war and I feel uncomfortable being with them.
They see all foreign countries as enemies (especially USA)
I think life is meaningless. I want to commit suicide more and more
Sorry for any mistakes. English isn't my native language.
BTW: It's my cat in photo. Her name is Leia and she is my cute preciouses being (and the only one who understands me)
Category Photography / All
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Size 2217 x 1662px
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I don't know you, but if you really feel this way, you need to seek help, or talk to someone about how you feel. Your cat(s) would be very sad if they never got to see you again. There are numbers you can call to speak to someone for help. No one here (on this site) can give you the help you need, and no one can seek out the help you need for you.
Rooting for you.
Rooting for you.
I can understand your pain my friend. What I can say is that in the professional world the best thing you can do is complete what you have started. While it may not be of use to you, it will show employers that you have completed something you have began which is important to show. While employers prefer experience and skills, they dislike quitters more and will be a bigger kneecap. Once you have your degree you can potentially seek related or adjacent work and work on new skills and abilities and move onto work you prefer more. Example I graduated in art but I struggled and worked in a crappy retail store for 4 years, then I became a history teacher for a year, then I finally became an art teacher. That's like 6 years and after 10 years I graduated from school due to bad luck and life. Just hang in there and focus on a plan of action for your life. You need a PLAN.
That's the problem, I don't understand what the plan must be about. I don't want to work by profession because I hate it. The seller in the store - my career maximum
Learning anything extra (like 3D) is also useless, since most companies no longer work in my country.
Guess I just don't deserve the good life
Learning anything extra (like 3D) is also useless, since most companies no longer work in my country.
Guess I just don't deserve the good life
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