Useless lore:
December has never been Krayrs month, not because he doesn't enjoy christmas, in fact he loves spend time with friends and have a good time, but as the song says: It's Christmas time again, It's time to be nice to the people you can't stand all year, I'm growing tired of all this Christmas cheer. so in an effort to keep his sanity up and don't let the past crawl back and ruin his good time, he just enjoys going to different parks and places who has a christmas village and go nuts with the decoration.

Nothing like a good beating on santa's workshop and bag of goodies to bring the mood up, tho lets hope the police station allows christmas parties, we don't want him to miss all the fun, right?.
Even tho probably his roomies will have to pay the fine to get him out early and celebrate.

>As always, sorry for my english, i overthink words and shait and i try to do it properly and mess up words, sentences and shait.
>Also in another note, i know i can do better with coloring and shadowing but honestly i don't feel like improving it, moods are stronger than my discipline aaaaa.

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Now some real real talk behind the drawing and why rant/vent stuff:
(If you don't feel like reading a big useless cringe edgy pitty text, you can ignore this below <3 )

Honestly this is more a desire deep down in my mind, just go nuts destroying everything with a false promise that it will fix things up.
December is not my month due to a lost of the only person that coulda change things up in my life. it just fake smiles, empty hugs and lonely nights. Family is not a thing that sticked around since that lost, well, it has never been but at least that coulda had been bearable with that person alive.

Now all i have is Edgyness, regrets, pent up anger, wounds that never healed, being a unstable emotional person whos affected by literally the success of others and who knows, according to self diagnose (and other people help) maybe depresion (or near it) and if that happens it will turn into a chronic one over time because i'll never have a rest, no matter what.

But its nothing to worry about, yeah, depression is not a game and should be treated immediately, but honestly, am still functional and capable of getting out of the hole and smile and shit. i might be broken and bleeding out but i haven't stopped working (yet) and i don't plan on doing it anytime soon, i have made myself a promise of helping those in need and be there for the people. I won't go out with out a fight, if that means i will be crawling just to reach you up and bring your butt back up, i'll do it. We are in this together like it or not.

Also about the lost, its been what?, 18 or 19 years by now but i still miss my old man, never got to met him because i was just a dumb kid who didn't understood life at all, now is all regrets of "i shoulda spended more time with him than outside" but he didn't wanted me to be like clingy or stuff, in fact, far as i know he really wanted me to enjoy life and be myself since he defended me against my mother who tried to hold me back from doing what i liked, but with his lost, my life turned outside down and i endured the chains of restrains and to be the "perfect" child, getting perfects grades and be just a amenable tool for her life.

Glad i turned into a big mess. At least i feel alive feeling miserable because i have reasons to improve and be "better" and keep fighting on and on, is sad, yes but is much better than just be a tool living a lie. tho having to fight myself and sometimes my own family brings me to my knees, i always stand up, no matter how long i stay on the ground. Like i said to my friends "you can't get rid of me that easily".

I might be edgy, a sad boyo and harsh on myself because yadayada self esteem, life and stuff, but in the end i prevail making people happy and making my path with them making myself happy and whole again, for a time of course, so, with that, lets hope i keep this up for a looooong time. so to end this shitty rant/vent art description, let me share these words.

"Don't worry about me, i have been in terrible shape and position before and honestly i'll be there soon, but until that day comes, i'll be here with you no matter what, i can take both weights if needed, yours and mine, but i'll be damned that i'll let you walk alone in such dire times, we are stuck together in this hellhole but we have each other. "