Welp, my heart's broken again. Thanks phone, I really needed that gut punch for the month of December.

On September 13th I lost my bunny Fairy Dust do to an unexpected stomach blockage. It absolutely destroyed me to lose her this way because I had no choice that it happened but I had to make that awful decision to end her suffering so it didn't get worse.

I couldn't function after that, I expected just a few more years with her, she was my baby and not seeing this coming, I just couldn't do it. After some time an emergency situation brought another bunny into my life so now I don't have to spend this Christmas alone this year.

I remember Livy turning and giving me a look, for just a second I saw a flash of brown and it wasn't Livy looking at me, it was Fairy looking at me before she was gone again, leaving Livy behind. It broke my heart in the moment but I like to think that this was Fairy giving me her final gift.

I still miss her so much. It was only a few months ago and while the worst has past I still have moment's like these that give me pause.

Livy is here now and she needs me. A tragedy may have brought us together but know that I love you as much as I did for my other girls.

Lord I miss you Fairy. I wish I could have had one last Christmas with you but you sent me Livy to take your place so thank you love, mama misses you 💔