Welcome I decided to reveal to you a part of my existence.
Depression is my profession. I'm being beaten by Brain zaps, so look at what my workplace looks like. This is chaos, and I am its overlord.
Perhaps some of you will be curious to know how it looks from the outside. I'm one of those schizoids who are slovenly. I hate "cleaning" in the usual sense of the word. After cleaning, as everyone sees it, I am will completely lost and can't find anything.
I sincerely do not understand why everyone considers it cleaning to push the right things into the corners., as far away from the hands as possible. Why live like this.

In the photo you can see how I am doing florian (leafy) mosaic. I wear a bandana so as not to blow away the pieces of leaves. The candy box contains different vegetation, and the cutting mat contains pieces ready to work on the mosaic.

I don't always smoke while working, in fact I smoke when there is a desire. Usually no more than 2-3 times a week, and I and my room don't stink. The smoke from my tobacco is very pleasant indeed. Pipe tobacco, if you don't know, smells very nice. This is completely different from the smoke that you feel from cigarette smokers.
Hmm, I wash my mug very rarely. My mom laughs at this, says that in my mug you can see the "annual rings" of the tree. Well. My mug is always busy with coffee or tea. I don't care what she looks like.
Besides, I'm a bit ascetic. I don't get pleasure from satisfying physiological needs, so I can eat anything, and sometimes I even forget to eat. I also wear old clothes, and I don't care if they are worn to holes.
I preferred to spend money (when I had it) on creative materials, tea and coffee. It's sad, I don't feel the joy of life. I am alive only because suicide is too destructive and I still do not lose hope of achieving something in this life. I won't live long, anyway.

Maybe in spring or summer I will show you my vegetable garden or garden. I'm going to grow flowers next season. I don't like flowers, but I will use their petals in a mosaic. And I love working in the garden, sometimes I even feel joy its. I can work in the garden at night or early in the morning, it's not difficult to go out for a couple of hours. Quiet and cool.

I hope you were interested in learning a little about me. Seek joy in your life.