Hello dear God. I am here again.
I am sorry because I know I got away from you many times.
I just need yoyu so much dear God... but I look for that peace you give me where I won't find it never.
And now I feel just empty and nothing can fill this heart I broke in many pieces for many people.
I know all the best things are awaiting.. and I have to be happy
But sorry cause I forgot who I am ..and why I am here
What can I do now? I thank you a lot because you are my strenght to defeat darkness against our people. I am just one of them
And we belong to you
Now I am just lost and confused.
I just wished to feel I was special for anybody....as all of them were for me.
What can I do? This is a diffwerent world. Maybe I don't belong here.
I beg you to give me your guyide cause without you.. I am just nothing
and what way to show that to this world than all this weakness I have had.
Many are strong for themselves and maybe critisize me now.
But it is because I got away from you.. but I want to be back
I am living a hell wherever I go.
I am just forgotten or hated...
and even the love I used to have is gone
Where is it? I wanna it back!!!
I am on your hands dear God
Eternal and supreme Light. My strenght and my Fortress
Help me live again and to complete my mission in this world
In the Holy name of Light I beg you this
And of course thanks for all.. <3<3<3
Maybe all of this had a purpose.. Idk
Glories and honours for you in all the eternity

Amen