This has plagued me this fall, and even moreseo for the past week.

I wish I had a better brain. One that could think straight. Wouldn't look back to what I did an hour ago, and change my mind.

Yeah, excessive day dreaming is probably an artistic help, but not being able to concentrate, easily remember, consistently make decisions... is crippling.

And as I've come to understand my condition better, I get sadder, thinking of what it has taken from my life, how I could have been, if this is the reason so many things went wrong?

I wonder why no teacher in my past stopped to think: wow, it's certainly odd that this otherwise smart girl can't keep up with shit and keeps failing, maybe something is wrong? Maybe we should nip this in the bud, stop this process instead of how it is - at the age of 24 after comorbid disorders surface and failing 2 higher educations, finds out she has ADHD-I. I am angry with them.

And I am genuinely worried for my future. Will I make it in time?