now HERE'S a uniquely furry problem... lately i keep running into the issue that Cat looks almost identical to my wife's fursona, and that the way i deport myself in my life is distinctly Not housecat-shaped (i was made especially aware of this in my last drawing of her)

in terms of using different fursonas to represent different facets of oneself, i think Cat originally served as a way for me to explore being an adult woman if that makes sense? i mean, Savvy was largely 'a woman', but honestly i think she perfectly encapsulated the extended-teenagerdom of being 21-23. Savvy's trying to buy groceries and make friends and socially integrate into the world of adults, while Cat has always been much more secure in all of that.

(man, i love FA because i can go on about shit like this and i KNOW you guys are gonna get me lol. on no other website have i been able to get so personal and feel so held)

but yeah, i've just really been feeling the void between Cat and Stygg. like, Stygg is the most 'me' creature i can fathom, but it's kind of a raw and unprocessed version of me that doesn't exist in the same dimension as my wives' fursonas... drawing them together feels like if we took a photo of the three of us but i had no skin on lol. i guess Stygg is kinda like my id.

i think Cat's only a cat is because she was never really intended to reflect how i see myself, she was always at a distance by design. i've been working through a lot of shame and fear regarding my sex life over the past couple of years (in part thanks to Cat!), so i guess in becoming less alienated from it i've created a fursona-shaped hole where the shame used to be. so yeah! brushtail possum! no idea if it'll stick, but i like it for now. :)