im going to ramble here

sometimes i feel like im dying, i have horrible dreams that i keep to myself and i think its important to know that about me. im really bad with feelings like love. i think i am dying. i am so horrid with my money that ive been taking help from family and friends, i cry about it a lot and i wish they didnt have to deal with me. i wear my heart of my sleeve and that much is clear to anyone. im sorry for the stress i bring to everyone in my path, i introduce myself as this stoic troll who just likes making people mad but the honest truth is that im not doing it on purpose im just a bad person to be around and making people mad is just what happens. but i have all of these wonderful freinds who keep helping me and talking to me and making me feel loved, i feel their pain every step on their lives and i hope we can all be happy soon. i know i will be with the help they give me and i hope i can return the favor soon.

Thankyou.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=elFDoNlj2XI

ive used this before but it means a lot more now